Saint Andrew's Junior College [Fri 29 Oct 2004. 10.14pm]
oh man.. i cant stop crying. i hate cheong jiaqi.. she made me cry... i was alreadi tryin to control as i went for tt most treasured training session. It even rained and we continued playing. Mabbe it was a grand exit for me. haha.. then there was the SC... where i saw gen and xiaoling. and i sae goodbye. and gen was going, wanwwweeeiiii....... i gave a wave of my hand and walked out of the SC before i get to see her face again. i noe i will juz break dwn. i walked out of the sch.. well one or two drop of tears. then everything was fine... it was juz a weird feeling in the heart. then aft i read her letter 5 mins ago. i realli couldn't control animore. she is so idiotic okay... why has she gotta mention all those fun and sad times we shared together. why has she gotta sae she feel like she's not gonna see me again. i hate her okay... oh god... thats so not true.... im gonna miss u jiaqi.... i never knew parting with them can be so bad... i mean it has onli been a few months... and i nvr knew it's so hard to leave SA... i always tot i hated this place... but im a veri sentimental person aft all.. haha.. yea tats y... time will heal... yah.. im okay... oh man.....................

not my whole class noes yet. ms lee dun even noe.. she's gonna kill me if she noes... and not all the touch ruggers noe too... well.. i dun realli intend to announce... i cant do tt.. i realli cant.. i dun wan to juz break dwn infront of them... i hate parting... i realli hate it. and my CIP trip. well... i tink tt stupid women wun let me go lar... look at her at the assembly juz nw. i realli cant stand her... and she even mentioned a fair system! wat the hell........ seriously if its fair i wun be typing all this nw... i wld be burying my head into books... well... theres no room for regrets. life have to go on.... a change of environment is good... well... lucky for those ppl who have got gd CTs and determination. best of luck to u all!

love the fun i had in 1st 3month too.. with odac and touch... im realli grateful towards mr lam.. he helped me realise alot of things... and well.. thanks for that vice-cap position which i have to leave behind nw. and the secretary position in CIP. i realli hope i can go with u guys... this is the last time realli... i hope tt ugly old hag dun stop me. im realli proud of all these achievements and well... i did the best i cld... yeap. hope u girls will go out there to win that medal we have been eyeing for so long... actually i kinda miss u guys alreadi.. darn!

as for me... yea im okay.... perfectly fine.... juz puffy eyes..... tt always happen aft a downpour. i will love to start over again..... but sometimes i wish there is someone to stand up for me.. coz im nw too weak to do so... and mabbe if someone juz come up to me and tell me not to leave... i might do juz that. i might go pester Ms Ho til she seeks proper explaination... seriously the exlaination she gave me.. i realli dunno wat to sae... well.. on the other hand... i tink its better for me to start afresh. i have been not focus for so long alreadi. its time to start anew. i will miss u guys... and i promise to keep a part of u guys with me! i wish i went for the outing juz nw... but well.. sorrie... things were juz too rush.. yeap.. miss u ppl alreadi! =]