*So Happy So Sad* 4.10am

memories. so happy n so sad.

went to work todae. last day of work b4 my break. had event upstairs. hafta applaude Darren. realli thankful tt he is there. a gd host. :] he can handle large grp. though i will like to try someday, but if there is some1 better, the better one wld definitely have to do the job. i dun wan to spoil Settlers reputation. hees. some GL i am. hahha..

definitely miss camps. miss the times when i was so passionate abt my position. miss the times when we worked hard together.

juz read finish "A Walk to Remember" by Nicholas Spark. so romance book. it was quite touching. words too big though. wld have been nice if it was longer. i still have my "I am a Cat" to read. haha.. reading is the IN thing during exam period. wahaha!

bought Saboteur frm Weide. laminate then can plae le! hahaha

talked to Auntie bout some stuff juz nw. quite gossipy n private stuff. she updated me. wahaha! i love chatting w Auntie. We make more mature conversation. like to hear her wise words. we shared quite a no. of common viewpoint. Though she is always confined to the kitchen, but she sees alot of things. She sees all those things tt ppl dun do in the main hall. she told me smth juz nw tt made me have doubts abt ppl. Ppl tend to say one thing but yet do another. if u choose to fall into the hole, i cant save u. aniwaes it is realli none of my business. things u do make sure to keep it out of my zone, then i wun interfere.

kayys nw is damn late. i muz slp! nites! :]

*Stop & Think* 12.10am

life has slowed dwn abits. for awhile. so is good! haha.. my GEMS teacher sae i am always smiling. but i din realised. tink im quite dumb. hahaha.. find everything funnie.

actualli i look back on some things recently. n yahhs. alots has changed. some tings for the better, some for the not-so-better. haha.. 'Change is the only constant' totally agreeable.

it was scary the way he said it juz nw. i dunno hw to reply. was quite stunned actualli. but i juz pretended tt it din affect me. tings has changed. n it will juz remained- changed. n maybe constantly changing. but it will never go back to the way it used to be.

r/s with ppl. some has turned sweeter, some has turned sour. maybe some even bitter. some i do regret the changed in flavour. but curdled milk can nvr revert back to liquid milk. even if they are forcefully changed, the feeling is juz- different.

aniwaes i haven been exactly following my BPP. haven been able to catch up w some ppl. but @ least i met up with my JC classmates last weekend! hehes.. Felicia, Isabel, Amanda, Wankay, Melvis n Thomas! we went to HV settlers. realli has been a long time. nice catchin up. met with Wen, Jing n Irenes for Crepes @ Out of the Pan Raffles City tOo. realli nice! a must try! :]

Really wan to sae sorry to those i still haven been able to set a date with. aft exams we will have all the time in the world! hehes.. til the next sem tt is. :] one person i realli needa catch up with is Jiat Sai! i miss her nonsense! hehes

oso juz nw had Captain Ball training. wanted to take Family Photo. budden not all turned up. haha.. but nvMs! realli had fun n a nice chat with those who came! hehes.. we did some ball handling n went to Vivo to eat Chicken Rice! we ordered family fiesta! the dishes are WOO! wahahhaa.. aLOT!!! got 4 guys n 2 girls. tink i eat more than the guys lo! they so weak la! hahaha.. realli glad to talk to Jian Wei n Andy toO! they reminded me of year 1 times. haha.. n they 2 getting v naughty le! muz respect senior arhhs! :]

actualli wat i realli wan to talk bout is my feelings about some changes. but suddenly i dun feel like talking about them. so ended up on updating all these. hehes

but juz wan to let ppl noe. i am leading a very happy n 80% carefree life now. haha tks :]

*New Skin!* 5.04am

oMg! look @ the time!!! wahahhahaa.... i have been searching for new blogskin like since 12am! wahahhaha.. and aft all the hardwork n sweat. i finally changed my blogskin! i realli like this skin! so refreshing! hehhees.. and i love the song too! :]

u can often see blogskins being changed during exams period! wahahhaa.. aniwaes i juz wanna take a break frm all the quizzes. todae juz completed GLMP! can burn notes liaO! wahahaha..

i 'kope' the slideshow foto idea frm jiawen's blog! hahah tks nu er! :p nw can display all my nice nice fotos! got lots more to show! hehes

oh yahhs. guess wat! MY FONE IS OUT!!! wahahahhaha Sony Ericsson w580i! oMG! i cant wait to get my hands on it!

LOVELY!wahahhaha! shld be officially release in the mkt ard 2 weeks lata bahhs.. wahhahaha so excited!

oOo! juz nw went to watch the Cap Ball finals w Alex. So shiok man! see the violent girl shout at ppl when im not playing. hahaha.. i realli pei fu her lo.. seriously. she is one fierce girl! tink she got the AGD (Angry Girl Disease). wahahhaha.. Tyra Banks talkshow mentioned bout this disease. its scary lo. one girl got it n she broke 2 of her sis's ribs. woaH. hahaha..

aniwaes the red team won! yay! clappas! they deserve to win more than the glow-in-the-dark. they got real ability lo. aniwaes oso becuz Arnold helped them! hahaha as defender! sadds we cant get into finals. but suAn le! :]

then we went jogging n we went to the Riverside Indonesian Restaurant to eat! yummy! the food is nt bad! we wanted to take the 6 course meal, but muz at least 4 ppl. :( aniwaes we still eat til super full! hahaha...

kays i better go slp liaO! wahahhaha nites! :]

*P-I-S-S-E-D*

im *$^*)!@_%^&@ suay todae! realli am steaming hot nw. juz nw was boiling kayys. Zzzz

todae went for Heritage Fest w Lawrence, Jing En n Kenneth. We realli chiong lo. 1st time i participate in this kinda race chiong til like this. nw i understand y Pupa always kena deranked. hahaha..

although so. we still din win anything. nt even the lucky draw. Zzz.. but nVms. had fun with them! :]

okayy suayness begin frm this point onwards. went to eat Carls Jr w them, reali too hungry le. hp alreadi low batt. den eat til 5pm. so called Weiqi using Kenneth phone. then okay. heard they nt there yet, so i can faster go hm, bath n go to her hse.

then wanted to take bus home, so separate frm Law n Kenneth. then walk there realise wrong bus-stop. okay nvm. walk to Esplanade tt busstop (my right feet was hurting abit due to the sprain @ this point in time le). walk there see those ppl marching for NDP on the road: ROAD CLOSED! okay nvms, walk back, take train. (my both feet r hurting n i felt weird in my attire walking in Citylink alone, n i dunno if i smell)

when taking train back i was standing near the door. n i kept falling aslp!!! i was standing okay! but i fell aslp so mani times! 1 time i nearli collapse on the floor when my knees gave way while i was slping. ppl were looking! Zzzz.. with sheer determination, i managed to reach JE w/o causing much Hoo-Ha.

take bus back. reach hse dwnstairs realise i did nt bring hse keys. went upstairs, no1 at hm. cannot make phonecall with my hp cuz alreadi Shut Dwn due to no batt. Zzz... i was alreadi running damn late for Weiqi dinner. n i onli rmb Wayne's no. so i called him to ask him to inform Xin tt i cant make it le. then i wanted call Papa, the onli no. i rmb in my family. n at tt point in tme i 4gotten wat is his no.!!! oMg. i wanted to die. i juz hang ard till i recalled. i call him, he @ Thomson Rd.

so i sit dwnstairs n waited for ard 2 hrs plus. feeding mosquitoes n luckily. got tt cat to acc me. budden she got angry with me when i pinch her fats so she ran away.

i dun wan elaborate le. i scold lotsa !*(&%$!&@ todae. tata!

*CaTch uPs* 1.11am

woO! im finally here to update on all the small little things tt i missed out for the past week.

Kampong Chicken!!! (YUMMY)
Durian n Apple Strudel! (Before)

And then tue had my Napfa. i got gold! yay! got crumpler liaO.. hahahha

oh yea. n i receive a realli cute gift frm wayne! lemme show u

Choco Fudge Brownie Flavoured Lip Balm
cutes hoh? hahaha its chocolate flavoured too! wahhhaa tks wayne!

Den captain ball lo! then nth mUch le.. hahah so tired nw. i go rest le. tml still needa go participate heritage fest w Kenneth, Lawrence n Jing Eng. Nites! :]

*Can We?* 12.54am

todae was realli messy. i so lazee to describe everything. waste alot of our time. we dunno if we can get into the finals. Zzz... basically there was a walk-over for the Indian team. so theoretically they won us by 1 point thus allowing them to go into finals. budden we not happy, cuz they lose to us ytd. so its nt fair they get into finals n we dont. so we asked 4 a re-match. but they refused. so make til v biG thing..

alex go there talk with them then one bunch of Indians go surround. he said he nearli tio whack. budden tru this i oso see my teammates whu care. cuz one point the Indian Ah-beng came n KB us. We juz sitting there peacefully. then he come like wan to fight wan to fight. i super irritated. i juz sae loudly, "wah lao he super ah-beng leh bastard" i realli bth liaO. then i stood up. it's juz cuz im super pissed he kept giving tt stupid face. then Shaoyong, Jian Wei n Wayne immediately stood up w me. tink they scare i kena whack. hahaha...

v funnie. cuz Shaoyong kept asking me to cool n holding me back. he tink im gonna fight mehHs. haahha.. i dun wan tio whack lo. that bunch of ppl unreasonable de lo.

aniwaes so much trouble is due to SPSU lousy planning oso. realli sucks lo their planning. referee onli got 1 and he sitting dwn tru-out the whole match. then their score keeper not concentrating. score can change de. then the main organiser can leave halfway when we settling problem. realli sucks lo. SPSU, ur organising skills realli CMI.

tink our team v funnie oso lo. then red team tt violent girl ask her teammates to shout molest if we touch them. then when the violent girl go knock into alex, alex shouted molest. wahahhahaha.. crapps sehh.

alot of interesting tings always happen during cap ball. u see betrayal, frenship n love. hahaha.. jiayoUs XYZ. we can onli prayy nw :]

*Sport's Fiesta!* 9.35pm

ytd was the sports fiesta! aniwaes i finally woke up few hrs b4 sch todae. wahahhaa.. so gt time to blog le! oh yea! sports fiesta. im in team XYZ. we draw 1 win 1. actually shldnt draw de. yahhs but nVm. SPSU has got stupid rules lar huh.. girls score same point as guys.. Zzzz.. super WTH.

but nVms. 4get it. the referee was good though. nt bias.

i tink i realli change le lo. im becoming so fierce :( ytd i felt i behaved like SMA lo. i was v rowdy n quite violent. then got 1 part when VS glow-in-the-dark i tripped. but actualli is nt his fault. i went to block him n trip on his foot. then i tio tiny sprain. so i went out of the game. then i began to shout for everything. esp 3-feet. then aft the game we won larhhs, then the guy came n apologise to me. then i felt so guilty. Zzzz.. sorrie!

but i feel tt in this kinda thing. if u dun do this u onli stand to lose. shouting realli helps alot. esp if ref din see.. i dun used to be so rowdy during games. actualli i am. but onli towards my own team. i will shout encouragement n reminders. budden ytd i was shouting at opponent instead. n when they hit one of my teammates, i will shout oso. OmG. i dun wan to be like SMA! :( so scary. i will try to tone dwn lata...

aniwaes nw is raining super heavily larhhs. so shiok man! juz nw my door BANG! then wake me up. then nw i can smell breakfast! woO! finally my mummy cooking b/f 4 me! hehes..

ytd aft FYP i chiong dwn to settlers to teach Auntie Cheesecake w Samuel. he got the receipe in his mind liaO lo! so clever! haha.. then i haven get to eat yet! lata mabbe sneak dwn go eat. kekes..

my daddy's eye is bloody again! read frm Internet is some conjunctiva haemorrhage. nt serious. but internet sae that doesnt cause pain, but my dad felt pain. xin sae mabbe is diabetes. so i ask him faster go check le.. *pRaY*

k larhhs.. i gtg le. tata! :]

*Friday-the-13* 2.09am

Lips of an Angel! this soNg! im looking for it n i happen to chance upon Markie's blog. n i heard it!!! it was a song sang by the band @ Wala Wala on wed's nite. really nice... the cute singer there sang it nicer. he always "gek" his dimples out when he siNgs.. hahaha so v cute! im looking 4ward to the next Wala Wala outing. this time we gonna go listen to the female singer. heard she's real good. ppl queue up way b4 to hear her!

okiies. actually im real sleepy. budden i dun wan to miss out bloggin on Friday the 13! cuz lata i will be going nite cycling! so wun be hoMe.. hehes.. WoOo! Supper!!! wahahhaa.. Tau Huay! You Tiao!!! omG! wahahaha

oh yea! juz nw went Lemongrass to celebrate Papa's bday. Happy Birthday Papaaaa!!! kekes. had a nice sumptous dinner! the service was real good! love the Tom Yum Soup! hehes.. n Tapioca dessert was gooD toO!

Aniwaes im starting to plae some RPG game online. wahahha... its call Bang Howdy! about the Wild Wild West. hahaha.. dun get addicted can liaO. yay! lata is Captain Ball!!! wahahhahaa! TGIF! :]

nites!

*Poly 50 is OVER!* 1.53am

juz a short update as my slping disorder is kicking in. hahaha

poly50 is O-V-E-R! we got 11th placing while team 2 got 14th. it was a good fight though. nw they learn the importance. i realli give it my all, so no regrets.

the onli ting i have regret is this morn CSW test! im realli gonna do so badly. i can sense it. me n my stupid problem. write compo always take super long to plan. Zzzz... can dies


aniwaes congrats to Alumni team 1! they got 1st! woaH! realli proud of them! u guys deserve it! aft all the hard work put in! great jOb ppl! :]

i run is becuz of CLS. i win i win in CLS. i lose i also lose in CLS. it is okay. we can try again next year. i mean u all! hahhaa.. i promise this time i will do my best to beat those suckers. im not gonna stand n do nth again! i promise! i cant swear as winning is not an absolute. but i will defintely do more! jiayou CLS! get back ur glory! :]

n then juz nw aft poly50 went to HV to meet them. went to Essential Brew to meet Kareen n Irenes 1st. then went over to Wala Wala 2nd floor when Ian turned up. then we shifted dwnstairs when Wenjie, Irenes, Jason n Gangyi came. the last to turn up was Hoe Ren. heez.. we had fun catching up! then we went up to 2nd floor to listen to the live band. the main singer is so cute! n he smiled @ me! wahahahhaa.. nO! im not dreamin kayys! :p

okies then we walk a long long way b4 we decided tt there is no bus n we shared cab home. yeap tts it! niteS! :]

*i CaN't HaNdLe ThE TrUTh* 3am

alvin is rite. i tink sometimes i realli cant handle the truth. some ppl sae the truth is too much for some to take. n i do agree.

i cant handle the truth that ppl are not wat they seem to be. i cant handle the truth tt ppl close to u are tryin to hurt u. i cant handle the truth that some ppl are so hypocritical. i cant handle the truth that im losing the very ppl tt i love. and i cant handle the truth tt everything have to be so complicated. i realli cant.. and i dont understand.

the one person that i tot was so saintly away frm these ugly truth prove me wrong. it is back to tt saying "everyone is the same" no exceptions. sadly... not even for u.

the more i noe, the less i believe. i realli cant imagine.

why do ppl have to behave liddat. why are they all the same?

im being forcefully jerk back to reality everytime i fall into lala land.

i need rest. a long long rest.

*JiayOu RonG RonG Team!* 10.22pm

actualli im suppose to be studying GLMP rite nw. but realise i haven update blog long time. so juz come to sae smth. haha..

Rong Rong Team is my team! Zirong's team! wahahhaa.. act i ownself come up with the name de. cuz last year we were in xionG XioNg team mahhs. so this year sama sama. wahahhaa..

aniwaes juz wan to sae tt Poly50 is drawing nearer. Although our timing isnt all tt fantastic, not enuff to beat last year's timing, i still believe tt our hard work will come into gd use. There was nvr a full team training b4, n i still duno who is Lizhen. a girl who was supposedly in my grp.

N i wan to stress! ENCOURAGEMENT!!! u all r not giving enuff! let me ask u, do u wan to run up the damn slope to a grp of silent team mates juz staring at u? or will u run faster with them cheering u on? c'mon! so far i tink onli Jiasheng understand. No matter hw tired, just a shout of encouragement will do! it makes all the difference. at least to me :] ppl, we realli need to have some team spirit here..

n watch the passing of cards. dropping one can lose u alot of time. pass properly.

kayys tink tts all. dunno hw mani of u will act read this entry. but yahhs. to those Poly50 runners who do. Jiayou lo! wo men ke yi de! tt day u can scold all the vulgarities u all wan to! juz run FAST! hahhaa..

and i wan to thank whoever is looking aft me. cuz i nearly, so nearly sprain my ankle juz nw during the last lap. when i was running towards Alan. my right leg went into the gap between the road n the curb, a tiny twist but i sprung back. Hengs.. am realli thankful. good shoes. hahaha..

kays i muz go hit the books! tata! :]