*MaCaRoNs!!!!* 2.30am

then went to Suntec w Jiawen where we ran ard like mad women. wahahhaa.. aniwaes back to juz nw. we had a drink n chatted abit then Alvin came! with MACARONS frm some super expensive place @ Robertson Quay! so it was a surprise! wahahahaa.. stun me! tks for everything! :]

had a Dry Run of Ops Black juz nw. wore Ling Yan's mummy dress. super cool lo. hahaha then super tired nw.! slp liaO! nites!!!! :]

*CLS!* 1am

wahahahah i like it when we shout CLS!!! b4 a match! so shiok! so loud! like v united. hahahha.. aniwaes we played CSCC juz nw n we won! gd job CLS team! more games coming up. muz jiayou! :]
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i did smth real evil juz nw. i smack the ball super hard into Jianwen's stomach! n i heard PIAK! oMg.. so sorrie JW! i realli didnt mean it. feel v guilty. act not v, juz abit. cuz realli v hard!!! hope he is okay. hahaha

aniwaes ytd i went to WCP. cycled there. its v nice lo!!!! they open up the fence le.. can see the sea le. so shiok! i will go there v often! wahahhaa.. sit there juz relax... its a gd place to bring ur gf/bf there lo! so romantic! hehehe

i feel v hot lehhs.. dunno whys.. aft juz nw cap ball went to bathe @ sports hall. then there was this ger inside n she started to talk to me. she said 'btw, it was a gd game juz nw' i tot she was talkin to her fren so i din reply her. then she look at me n sae tt shes talkin to me. so we started to chat. she's frm Sport Club! hahaha.. so zhun! year 1. so innocent. dunno anything.

aft i went inside then i heard commotion outside the bathroom. n then the ger was asking "the CLS ger, r u still inside?" then i replied her. they started chatting n i realise tt there had been a Peeping Tom. then i faster change n come out. it happened tt one of the ger saw a face at the window which was slightly ajar. those windows are above the shower. so she ran out n saw someone walking out of the alleyway. n she saw a chair there. So sick lo! she confronted the person but he keep sayin is nt him. DuH!

veri sick hohhs.. do this kinda thing.

aniwaes got cont on de. but i veri lazee le.. tired oso. hahhaa.. k la. i go slp le! nite nites! =]

*Hip Hip Hurray!* 1.30am

WW= BBL! :]

too tireds! out!

*Tough days Ahead* 2am

since i already said it out, im prepared to take the consequences. it isnt an act on impulse, i juz cant see how Wayne n my frenship can ever be right again.

we share common frens, even hang out in the same clique, this is definitely gonna be tough on L2G5 n CLS frens. im sorrie tt tings have to turn so ugly, but as everyone can see, it has alreadi reach the stage where we cant stand each other.

im sure days ahead is gonna be tough like hell. but its better than this unfulfilling frenship where we keep hurting each other with words. i have alreadi said my part n that will be it.

some frens will definitely be taking sides, it's hard to avoid. we have tried to repair this frenship b4, but it juz wun go right.

sorrie to the ppl around us. i will try my best nt to let this affect sch work, esp during grp work.

*Problem Not Solved at All* 1.15am

u were gone b4 i cld tell u anything.

stupid emo month.

i wan to be stronger. physically n mentally.

todae is the 3rd time...

i cldnt control my anger. cldnt control tt stupid face. cldnt stand it anymore.

is it my fault? no? but why do i feel like im bearing the consequences of everything tt had happened? why do u have to be all around? i need some space...

i wish there was no existence. hate it when this kinda thing happen. dun act as if u noe me v well. all the (@*$!(@)!_&*^% are going tru my mind. so !@*#&(*@#*@#. realli...

n u, so immersed inside the world of ur own. feeling onli ur own pain. ur own needs. no1 else seems to matter anymore.

stop friggin tink u r right.

i realli rather not. realli. i dun need this right now. not now....

onli wan to tink about family, studies n captain ball.

*S.L.E.E.P.S* 2pm

yesh.. i need tt right now. in the sch lib. finish most of the things i shld do, so here i am update u abit. many things occured over the weekend!

had 2 birthday celebrations on Sun! With eng, yujing, jason n irenes @ Waraku MS. they surprised me lo. act tot going to meet eng onli. hahha.. then all of them pop out. n got me a cake too! :] im v v happy! xie xie ni men! *huGgs*

then aft tt act Gangyi they all coming to sing K, but i've gotta go meet Alex, Joan n Clar @ Bugis for yet another round of food! we went to seafood harvest. hmm.. not v fantastic their food, but was alrites. heez.. they ate yucky Escargots. oMg.. so disgusting. i tried a teeny weeny bit. yewWww.... n then we went to walked around. wanted to go to the puB with Jazz music, budden was closed. so we decided to walk to Suntec.

n dunno which @#%^!&@* bring us walk the wrong bridge! hahahahhaha omG. was super horrible i tell u. there was no human pathway! we were basically on the expressway n walkin on grass n mud. I was like trekking with jeans n flip flops! it was super funnie larhs! i kept luffing as i walked. as Joan puts it, going out with Khakis is always out-of-the-world experience! hahahaha... then @ Suntec we were borrowing lighters frm strangers to light out bday cakes! haha

hmm then ytd had training. was a good one. quite enjoy it. is lookin forward to Fri's compe. i noe compe is gonna be strong. but i've confidence in the team! :]

aft tt went to eat with Jianwei n Shuzhen. talked bout camps n sch life. then i chiong dwn to Settlers for the briefing. ended up with some photo-taking n then we played a new game! Killer Bunnies! super fun! i was winning larhhs! @ first! hahaha.. i used a card call poverty poker n i force everyone to drop their carrots n money into the pot, in the end i won everything! wahhahahaha.. nobody had any money or carrots except me! hahahhaha.. n dunno which &^@^#* go play a card which require me to pay tax for every carrot i own. Zzzz.. in the end hafta throw them all away again. hahaha funs!

then Ostrakhon. the game i kept wanting to plae aft listening frm Hweeming. Super funnie larhhs! luff til i nearly died! the qns we ask i cannot post here. M18... Mabbe R21 too. hahaha

then GuanJie drove so he sent me home. b4 tt acc them to eat supper 1st. by the time i reach hm i was nearly dead. hahahha.. kept falling aslp while doing ANCELL. zzzZz.... tonite will b rest nite! :]

hafta watch my slping time n diet this week, cuz sun is the run le! keep in optimum conditioN! :] see ya!

*You're Just Another AssHole* 12.25am

tt was wat Alice said in RE 3: Extinction. she is so cool!!! RE is not bad! love shows where woman are so strong! wahahhaha.. looking 4ward to RE 4! :]

aiyo i felt totally sian diao lo. smth i look 4ward to has juz been cancelled. realli v siaNz diao.. sometimes its so demoralising. hw do u let others see hw much smth mean to u? but suddenly it doesnt feel all so impt anymore. no1 gives a damn. yea. why shld u. u nvr felt hw i felt.

sometimes i get so worked up over such tings. is it realli neccessary?

realli wan to tell. but to who? dun juz talk for the sake of talking. i can see when ur eyes r unfocus. i can feel when u r distracted.

no1 play to lose

*Happy Birthday to Meeeee!!!* 3.30am

i hereby wish myself a very happy birthday! wahahahhaa

bonsai came over to gimme a surprise juz nw! i even hadda bring dwn my own blindfold. wahahhaa... love them loads! :] lotsa photos taken, but none shall be reveal! wahahaha

a clip tt i realli realli like! frm Meng! tks all for ur wishes! :] mUacccks!

*WWW BioInfo* 3pm

Nw in T424, so siaNz. BioInfo starting soon

it was raining so heavily juz nw! dunno lata still got Cap Ball training mahhs... Hope got.. I wan to see my thigh heal le ma. pls heal!!!

Made brownies for them le. hope they dun eat n die. hehehes..

so bored!!! tml dunno go where to eat. actualli dun wan eat zhi cha, budden nw dun feel like spending so much money le. hmm.. mabbe go eat the Korean BBQ papa suggested. hehes... hungrys.

wan to go shopping!!! i saw an Adidas shoulder bag i SUPER like lo. but guess hw much issit?? $202!!!! so friggin expensive! oMg lo! tsk. i wun get it bah... bahhhs... hahaha.. haven receive my pay yetts.

finding a day to plae Ultimate Frisbee with Kyla, Weiquan they all. hmm.........

aniwaes i have a new name! BBL! wahahhaa.. chapman give de. but i tink myself de. wahhahaha.. got Logo sumore! :p dun tell u wat issit. go figure out urself! :]

Class starting soOn. OuT! :]

then went to Sentosa wanted to support Huat Jin playin Ultimate Frisbee. In the end onli watch 1 match they played. n it was agst the ranking no.1 team in Singapore: the Freakshow! wahahhaa they are realli freaks i tell u. they r so super fast n chiong! they dive like nobody's business. n they manage to catch the disc! clapps* i was realli so amazed.

realli feel like joining Huat Jin's team. realli realli. but i noe nw is surely not the time. sighs- n i oso scare i will give up halfway. juz like i did in Touch.

aft so long for not playing professional sports i wan to try again. i haven always been facing up to the truth. part of the reason i wan to leave SA is cuz i wan to escape my responsibility as the vice cap. i din tink i was good enuff. not up to the post. n in fact, i was scare of the ball. i always wanted to pass it away the moment it reaches my hands. terrible. the feelin is realli terrible. its jus nt rite tt the vice cap of a team play so lousily. i felt ashamed. super.

im telling nw so tt i can face up to it. stop hiding. i wan to renew my confidence n give team sports a try again. realli interested in ultimate frisbee. but guess it hafta wait.

wat is impt nw is cap ball. focus! lets prove to others tt we can do it! :]

work was fun! but i was quite tired. Darren bought Dim Sum for me for dinner! wahahhahaa.. todae one whole day i ate dim sum! haahah.. yum yuM! tired le.. yaWns.. nites! :]

*RIPPPPPP*

hahahahaaha @#*)!@*^!@ hahahahahah (!)@&*@#&)!_ hahahahha *!@@(#*)@#

the unbold words came out frm my mouth n the bold words appeared in my mind.

tt happened juz a few hrs ago. in Paragon.

i pulled my thigh muscle juz becuz i kneeled dwn to put smth into my bag. i heard smth go PIAK when i kneel dwn in a quick motion. and it was so DARN PAIN. i was luffing n cursing(in my mind) for about 5 mins? tt was the dumbest thing to happen lah. n it is still so darn pain when i cross my leg. -sighs. pls heal soon!

lookin forward to the weekend! parents will be away! wahahhaha me n sis shall go out n plae til late! :]

*Again* 3.18am

slpt like a pigg.

miss the cafe.

nw so many ting r settled so shld be happy. left a few hanging

cannot tink too much. nt gd for health.

everyone makes mistake. everyone deserves to be right again.

even though i cant stand tt thought but i ought to be rational.

i noe perfectly well who is good to me n who arent.

but be rational.