*iM gLaD i DiD* 3.06am

dis mornin went to sch to do project with doreen n weikang. then aft tt got captain ball. VS EEE... at 1st veri siaNz.. cuz Aaron is malaysia, Tat Siong at work, can onli come at 4pm whereas the macth is starting at 3pm. then Arnod oso nvr come... then Ronald oso haven reach.. so left onli Alvin, Junhao, Weijian, Yenwei, Yimin and me... actually got weixin to sub arnod, but they sae not in list cannot plae.. so we 6 no subs chiong all the way lo..

Huaxiong also got plae.. he and a yellow shirt guy guard me til veri cham.. they plae man to man.. so realli veri hiong.. he veri funnie. i guard him he tell ref i molest him. idiot.. then in the end we won la.. realli happie... 21-18 i tink...

hmm u noe juz now.. i do AnP til super tired... i realli cannot concentrate le. so i went to lie dwn on the floor to rest. then mama and jie jie keep comin to disturb me, talk so loudly gimme a shock. so i super irritated.. then my hp keep sounding... aft the 3rd sms tone i woke up and went to take a look at my hp. 2 msg was frm my good fren.

the 2nd msg that she send was to scold me. i dunno she meant it or not.. i read liaO i felt nth... veri numb.. i fell aslp at the comp desk again. aft tt i cannot stand it le i switched off the comp and went to lie dwn in my bed. i read the sms a 2nd time, by the 3rd time, i started crying... suddenly i felt veri hurt.. she sounded v serious n i did not noe wat went wrong. while i was crying all those sad things come back to me again.. so i took the chance to cry out hard... but i had to snuff the sound in my pillow to avoid attention. sad life rite? haha...

i typed an sms wanting to reply back.. but that time i was so hurt im afraid i will sae things tt hurt her too.. so i juz delete away the msg and switched off my hp...

i juz switched on my hp and saw another 3 msg frm her.. these 3 msgs are msg of encouragement... im glad i did not send wat i type to her juz nw.. or else things wld be even more heated up nw i guess. but still.. i dunno whether she meant it in the sms she scolded me.. but all i cld sae is i took it veri seriously...

so wat i wan to sae is.. if u are upset with someone, do not scold tt person w/o thinking.. take some time to think n cool dwn.. u might realise that there's nth to be angry with aft all.. dun sae things tt u will regret lata. u cant take back wat u sae. it goes both ways...

*TaRoT* 2am

oh ya.. forgot ytd went to pengru hse we got plae tarot cards oso.. but is not those reali tarot cards.. doreen bought them frm popular... hmm so we played lo.. everyone wanted to noe what the future has in stall for them.

mine was all lousy... hahahha.. is super lousy... sae wat i may have miscarriage... lousy love life... hahaha.. u believe?

*CoMe collect my body next wEeK* 10.36pm

really lo.. lemme give u a list of wat i haven do

-AnP report 2000words
-BSBM formal report
-AP Chem formal report
-GEMS report
-Chem revision exercises
-Biophysics presentation
-CD presentation
-Maths Chap 3 and 7 tutorial
-Maths assignment

and nw is alread TUESDAY! tml there captain ball, thurs there's APEX, at nite go nite cycling with weixin, fri i sure slp til late afternoon, then got GL gathering and muz go watch the concert with G.. sat is the jie jie yatch party thing til SUNDAY! oMg.. u tell me how... is realli can go jump dwn nw...

haish... wish me luck k! aniwaes sun went to melissa hse... xmas gathering... gangyi. jason, kangwei, yongquan, wenjie, mad, sooeng, irenes, pohsiew, wenting all went. then aft awhile WEIQI n EE GHIM came!!! i was so surprise to see them! hahahaha.. so glad oso! so long nvr see them le!! hehehe.. then we eat, talk then i went dwn to settlers.. ard 9 plus then reach.. some ppl left alreadi.. then played cluzzle with chinwee, alvin, edward, sam n weekok... then aft tt took cab home.

then ytd went pr hse class gathering.. BBQ food! then his hse so super big lo! 3 storeys! its an entertainment hub lo! wahahhaa.. went there sing karaoke, played ps2... his bathroom everyroom oso got.. then his mother culinary skills oso veri gd! wahahha.. she do icecream log cake for us! then we play mahjong whole nite.. i realli quit gambling le lo.. they tempt me ytd to plae money but i refuse! wahahhah... so i watch those who juz learn hw to plae... wayne, doreen, vincent n tovia.

lemme show u my christmas presents! :]


All these are frm frens n family...


cat bolster frm yuTai!


this is my fav!!! chocos frm SINS frm my auntie! hehehe :]


@mel hse


my class! the day the log cake got smashed on my head.. hahaha

*MeRRy cHRiSTmAs!!!* 4.50am

yOz!!! mErRy cHRiSTmAs!!!! wahahhaha.. i juz came back frm work... Zzzz.. not veri veri tired, but abit sleepy.. hahahaha...

in the morn go gym with weixin, then we went to bugis walk walk.. then i went to work she went to watch king kong.. hahaha... then todae at work i v happie! wahahhaa.. cuz i working 2nd floor.. then got this super super SUPER cute looking guy at A5... wahahhaa... i tink he is indonesian.. cuz they speak malay... then he realli veri nice looking lo.. then he veri funnie oso.. hahhaha.. then i help them take picture he sae "thank u" to me!!! wahahhahahaha.. then aft tt when they left he sae "thank you" agaiN!!!!! wahahhaha! im going maD!!! :p he look like Jap... with his cool hairstyle n he look so so SoooOoo cute! hahahahhaa!

then he got smile at me.. wah-ha-ha-ha... but he got gf alreadi... :( but nvm.. look at him enuff liaO.. hahaha i noe i veri er! but this's the season to be jolly! sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la! wahahhaa... *gLazed eyes*

then todae G came but din have space for him.. surprisingly he noe marcus toO.. frm JSS.. hmm then he gave me a xmas gift! it's a cat tin with famous amos cookies inside! so sweet.. i reali love it! tks! :] then juz nw reached hm got a gift on my table, inside all cats stuff.. got cat bag, cat paper clip, a correction tape n precious moments sweets.. i guess it's frm Jessica.. hahhha.. tks guys! i love u all! mUaCks!

betta go slp.. tml going mel hse to gather for xmas then going over to settlers to play!! wahahhaha..

*DuN bRiNg WaTs oN CoURT oFF CoURT* 3.30am

i tink i got this title frm peikun's nick in mSn.. hahhaa.. becuz todae there was the captain ball's semi n finals.. i went to sch earli to do the walkin on water thing.. in the end help them blow balloons.. then aft tt delay til 9.30am then start cap ball.. i went to draw lots.. and it was with peikun's grp.. i realli siaNz diao le lo.. of all grp y them. but i still trust my team... i believe we can do it.

and we did... at first... we were leading by quite abit.. until 2nd half last 3mins? peikun n andrew started to plae rough... they can tackle the ball frm my hand when im holding on to it.. n seriously.. the referee i dunno wat they were doing.. at the start of the game cuz both teams wear white then they din bring bibs i alreadi v pek chek liaO.. cuz alot of time when kanchiong u wun look to see whu u passing to.. i go club search oso dun have.. i dun understand why they din get ready everything... tt aside.. yah then our team start to pek chek oso.. cuz they plae til so rough... then we mess up lo.. cuz everyone is losing their cool.. n yong zheng shouted at mevis...

i see liaO i realli sad... i noe once we lose our cool n we let it show, its over.. no matter hw mani times i ask them to calm dwn they are still kan chiong-ing.. n me myself started to mess up tOo.. plus i see peikun, andrew n yenwei's face... they look v pissed... its juz a game.. why cant we smile n encourage each other... why do we have to plae rough.. i realli dun understand.. wat makes me even more sad is tt we are frm the same club lo..

in the end we draw... we were so close to winning... realli so closE... we let them score at the last min becuz we mess up... n i tink it was me who threw the ball out... i was tinking whether to tell them hw i feel, i noe i will sure break dwn de.. but i cant control, i ask them why they have to lose their cool.. then i broke dwn... i felt realli bad.. cuz i noe im bringin dwn their spirit.. n aft tt is realli no more mood to plae le.. yong zheng tried to encourage me.. realli tks alot to him.. he brought up the grp's spirit.. then joan n seow went in to plae the 4mins game..

there was so goal until the veri last min... yenwei score.. i din see wat happen but heard she one foot step on the line n shoot... i always tot tat steppin on the line is out... i realli realli realli tink tt the referee shld sae properly every single rule to prevent misunderstanding... so in the end everyone was so pissed off with each other.. sister is oso so angry.. i nvr see him so angry b4.. joaN is super angry toO... i was realli veri sad to see these happening.. yenwei is oso so angry.. we keep blaming each other... but in the end it was still considered a score.. so of cuz i was veri sad...

im the captain of the team.. i shld be encouraging them and telling them to keep their cool.. but in the end i broke dwn.. wat the hell lo... i suck at tt joB.. im super emotional lo.. i juz cant stand seeing all those angry faces... its realli juz a game... why do we have to be so angry with each other...

the fight for 3rd place was futile.. i knew we can beat junhao's team.. but everyone spirit is alreadi so low le.. so alot ppl anyhw plae.. we werent thinking of winning animore.. n yong zhen keep blockin the ball, but everytime let the oppenent catch.. and he have to jumb to block again.. no one frm the team helped him to take the ball.. and he mentioned tt after the game.. he sae he feel tt we are nt helpin him... he sae: u all tink keep jumping not tired one arh! i felt even more sad lo.. cuz is i ask him to help us plae de.. in the end he is the one tryin his best n wat about the rest of us...

even b4 this match i alreadi noe who are those committed n who are those not committed.. everytime training is the same old few ppl.. some is feel like coming then come, dun feel like then dun come.. the rest is realli cannot make it... tts okay.. but those wan to come then come de they din even spare a thought for the others... we train til so hard... but is onli the few of us.. wats the use of juz a few ppl keep training n the rest not... everytime ask them dwn onli those few come i alreadi feel v bad, ask them come but in the end so few ppl come.. if in the 1st place u dun wan to commit then dun promise me to join the team..

everyone has their own stuff n things to do.. we are tired toO.. realli muz thank weixin n seow.. im sure not becuz they love captain ball tt they wan to come dwn for training everytime.. is becuz they promise me to plae in the team le thus they feel tt it is their responsibility to come dwn for training... u tink they like to train so often? they came even when they have 2 tests 2 days lata..

i realli hate it when ppl make up so much excuses juz to escape responsibility... since u promise to take up the job then do it well!

haiz.. theres no one to blame la.. we can always try again...

*sTuPid ThiEf* 11.20pm

haish.. Joan lost her hp juz nw.. she was decorating the FnF site, she left her phone with june's on the chair, then when she went to get it back, it was gone... haiz... stupid idiotic thief.. me and laopo helped to ask the security, but their stupid CCTV system is not up yet.. haish.. joan super sad.. i see liaO oso sad..

then help wayne they all decor the place n hang banner.. then went with wayne to clementi to get decors.. then eat there then went hm...

tml is FnF le.. in the morn got cap ball compe.. realli realli realli hope tt we can win at least 2nd... realli realli realli hope... quite scare... pray harD* then sun got walkin on water training.. 8am.. im going to die lo.. tml got work til so late.. then sun morn got training.. can PUKEs...

i realli dread next week.. so MUCH projects.. realli alot alot alot lo... oH maN... haish!

*LeTs gO bAcK To ë BeGiNniNg* 4.20pm

woah~ this week has been a roller coaster ride.. so much things to do and so mani things happen... esp the slping part.. im always dozing off lo... cannot stand it... i doze off on the bus, in class, aft eating, while studying, oH maN.. cannot stand it. so tired...

fri was inter club captain ball compe. we won sports club 28-1! yaY! hahaha.. we've got realli great players n great teamwork! :] then there was biophysics n BSBM test.. i realli cannot make it le.. BSBM was so easy... but i DIN study well for it. so i messed uP... haish.. biophysics was a killer.. esp mr goh's part.

i realli enjoy my weekend.. fri nite went to settlers to celebrate damn clar bday with joan, alex n weixin... wanted to surprise him.. haha but onli suceeded 50%. all my fault.. hahaha.. then we played til closing lo..

i went to Villa Francis old age hm ytd morning to do community service... i was realli difficult to communicate with the elderlys.. cuz of language barriers.. but i enjoyed TRYING to communicate with them.. there was one old lady she kept laughing n smiling when we talk to her... and we help to unclog the drain n Dr E led us tru the garden for some lesson. hahaha.. then i took the director's car to Novena mrt n i went to SPCA... aft tt met caiyan at bugis for shopping...

then went to work.. work was again fuN.. dunno y but i juz enjoy it although it can be tiring.. but ytd was more challenging.. cuz there were quite a no. of difficult customers.. i was quite tired cuz din get much slp the nite b4 and the nite b4 ytd's nite.. hahaha.. but willis n mark help me to wake up. by being super irritating.. hahaha..

so nw i got to go and study A n P be4 i flunk another test! haisH... tata!

*DeFiniTiOn oF a GoOd FrEn* 8.40pm

if theres a definition for a good fren, i tink i will definitely not make the cut. i realli dunno hw to be a good fren to you all, i cant possibly make sacrifices for everyone i noe rite.. i have my own things to do..

im trying my best to change already... muz control n stop scolding ppl le... although most of u noe im juz joking, but i tink some wun understand.. so i mUz stop it.. too much scoldings is irritating oso..

shld i tell u hw i feel.. its gonna be so awkward aft tt... im trying.. realli trying to be a gd fren to u although i dun tink u r trying ur best. some sensitive things u said i juz laughed it off... our frenship is so hard to hold on to when onli one side is making the effort.

a gd fren shld be someone who does not make u feel.. speak up for u when ppl insult u... share ur laughters n ur pains... protects u... or is it..? im sure i will speak up for u when ppl make fun of you.. definitely will! i will try my best to keep worries away from u... i wan to share ur laughters n pain... n i will definitely protect u frm harm. But why izzit u doesnt seem to understand......

i hate it why u get angry at me... cuz i will brood over it for days n days n days.....

*LoOkiNg FoRwArD* 10.40pm

heyys! juz nw went to watch harry potter n the goblet of fire with alicia.. we went to watch at bugis.. omG lo.. the cinema is CMI.. the seats super low.. hahaha.. finally this week tests all over le.. but quite difficult nia.. AP chEm n Biophysics.. all of us siaNz half aft the tests.. hahaha...

dis fri tot can go squash training.. plan properly le.. but juz nw aaron sms me tell me got interclub cap ball compe.. HaiSh... i realli dunno hw lo.. i miss 2 trainings le.. if fri oso miss is 3 liaO... omG.. can die.. but of cuz cap ball takes priority... n aft tt going dwn to settlers with bro n sis...

nowdays i kept reminding myself tt i need to study hard lo.. i keep tinking back to hw i felt when i left SA to come to SP... i realli nit constant reminder.. or else my aim will drift... i cant afford to right nw.. haish.. somehow i feel more.. how to put it.. hmm.. stress? this sem.. mabbe stress is not the word, budden i juz feel tt i need to do well.. i owe it to my parents n myself.. oh maN.. dis is so tough...

i need to work for my own expenses... i wan to be active in club... i wan to do well in my studies... i dun wan to neglect my frens... n i wan to plae squash... time is realli the limiting factor nw.. everytime aft cap ball, squash or kickboxing, i will be so tired i will fall aslp at my desk while studying.. its so hard to control.. oh maN tell me wat to do..

*i nEeD mOnEy* 9.12pm

oMg.. i juz checked Dec schedule.. Eric din put me on shift for dec! i tink im gonna die of starvation... nw my family no one holds a proper joB... oh man... i tink u all can start saving up to contribute to my fund le.. haiz... im onli working on xmas eve.. dec i dun work.. jan exams nearing oso cannot work.. feb is exams.. all the more cannot work.. march prepare for FO camp.. i can forget bout working le.. saDded... :(

ytd was CLS sports league! my team got weixin, seow, joan, chunleong, alex, bernard, damn clar, alvin n an imported foreign talent.. and mE! the foreign talent is yong zheng.. he is a bballer.. i last min ask him de.. he is doreen's fren.. i wanted to ask him b4 liaO.. then tt day played frenly with him.. so ask him join us.. he realli helped us alot lo. thanks so much! we got into the top 4 with weijian's team, tatxiong and junhao's team.. all club de ppl! so cool lo... i cant wait for finals to be played on 17 dec.. CLS food n funfair..

oh ya n foodgame ended le! so fun tt day... i partner with alex n led a team of girls! they veri power lo.. we got 4th.. but we are the 1st year one team! wahahhaa.. they veri lihai! aiZai!

juz nw went for kickboxing with joan.. I love it lo! so COoL.. our teacher so pretty n sporty.. then veri cute oso.. got music to go along with the steps... but seriously quite tiring... is like aerobics.. cant wait for next week! hehehe.. u all better dun bully me nw.. esp ALEX n DAMN CLAR... cuz joan n me can together kick box u alL! wahahhaha..


GLs for FOOD GAME!