*Lazeee* 4.30am

i have been just plain lazy to update. haha. sorry

today went to GE run. din clock as good as Shape run. cuz Jie got flu. we din run fast.

then aft tt went hm to bathe then go Toa Payoh hub n watched Ah Tee sing. v nice! :]

den met with 2/4 ppl to go Timbre The Substation. then eat n stay to catch a few songs of the live band n went to Clementi KTV. til 3am. haha

v fun. but b4 the Timbre my mood was already quite ruin while worrying bout certain things.

v sad. i noe i will leave one day. n when i do, i noe it juz wun be the same. we will no longer be close. n tt is quite sad. :(

haiz. tonite is an emo nite. mabbe its cuz of all the Emo songs i sang at KTV. haha. realli am so tired.

*Sigh(s)* 1pm

i was just told about smth 2 hrs plus ago. Ah Tee left NS le. sighs- i still abit cannot register it. cuz it's v sudden n unjustified. damn siaNz man. people like Ah Tee, Boon, Mel is the reason y work is fun. but nw work has so much less to look forward to.

Saylin said "It's not as if she died!" but it certainly feels so. it just wun be the same again.

but im also happy for her. at least she will have more time dedicated to doing smth which is "more her". i prefer to see her on a performing stage. we will hear more great singing soon! :]

sighs i have nth much to say. dont feel like going into details. nowhere is safe. i will update bout my birthday celebrations another time. go back to doing English nw.

dere's still work lata :(

*Totally Gone* 4.34pm

Okays. I am like totally dead tired. Today morning I really didn't want to wake up. But i keep telling myself "c'mon. I'm in NUS now. It's not SP anymores. The people here are crazy. C'mon, u gotta wake up" well it worked. but I didn't do my stats tutorial anyways. so i was just going there to copy the answer. -.-

well. i had work ytd night. It was supposed to be fun, cuz it was with Zah, Mel n Boon. but I was quite tired to do much talking. because Sunday I was working the WHOLE freaking day! 8.45am to 12 midnight! and (i'm hating myself for this) I went for supper with the gang. it wasn't entirely my fault! I wanted to rush for the last bus, but I had to do Post Deployment even though i doubled, and that made me missed my bus. Zzz...

ytd Yuru n I rushed for the bus too. but it came 2 mins earlier and we missed it by 100m. Double Zzz...

anyways took the transport with Boon n Cheryl. Halfway while we were engrossed in our little chat, the Uncle jammed the brakes and Cheryl (who was sitting the aisle seat) flew onto the floor while Boon and my face hit the back of the seats infront of us. Uncle got into an accident. The 1st thing Cheryl did when she climbed up was to spewed vulgarities at the Taxi Driver who collided with Uncle. Cheryl the blur n seemingly demure girl scolding vulgarities I never even think I had heard before in my entire 21 years on Earth? (it was really quite funny) well, we had to calm her down and Uncle went to confront the Taxi driver with his big notebook.

I had quite a scare (from the vulgarities). haha!

In the end, I managed to rch Clementi safe n sound to meet Daddy who had a cup of hot Milo ready for me :] and i rch home ard 1.30am.

okays. anyways I tink sometimes my posts contain too much details. so now let me summarise.

Thurs- Work

Fri- Played Captain ball in SP with CLS Juniors n we won! :] had dinner at Vivo Thai Express and went to Lim Expensive Kopi @ Park Royal Hotel "The Bar" with the seniors. Took a cab to WCP to have supper with NS mad ppl. and ATee sent us all home.

Sat- spent the WHOLE entire day in ECP to blade with Khakis and went to ET Bday party and had a little birthday surprise from Khakis.

Sun- spent the whole day working in the Zoo (my 1st Bird Photo) and cont by the Night Safari. Oh and Hobby made his great escape tt day. Making me spent a good 2 and a half hr staring up a tree. But we manage to get him back ytd.

Mon- Sch in the morning and work at night.

Tue aka Today- Trying to work on Chem Proj while waiting for Rovers meeting. (n i wanna have a good slp tonight!)

my 21st is just 2 days away and it feels so unreal. The day that i dreamt about celebrating with Friends n Relatives all gathered together is now just another day. Which of course I have to spent on studying Thai. Sighs- Nvm. I will wait for my wedding day! :]

*Seriously. there is smth wrong with me*

i am currently angry (with myself), tired and sad.

blogging in central lib. doing my English essay.

seems like i can't get anything right.

my passion has run out.

i miss the time when i was so enthusiastic about the things i'm doing.

im behind in sch work.
working aft sch seems tiring.
im always sleepy.
and i can't even plan my own 21st birthday party without screwing it up.

sighs- when can i change?

i am so angry

*Birthday Bashed* 10.50pm

im not holding my 21st anymores! sadds... cuz i cldnt find an appropriate venue. n v expensive n mafan! Zzz.. haiz.. abit sads. but nvm la. i can do much more with the money tt i save up! hees..

okayys.. for those who r fretting over wat to get me for my bday. fear not! help is here. haha.. im gonna list out a list of things tt i want. nt being bhb okayys! but just to help u all save time n energy! hahaha.. but of course, its perfectly fine if u guys dun wan to get me anything frm here. rmb it's just a suggestion list. :]

1. Braun Buffel ladies wallet (Think this is "chop" alrdy :])
2. Pretty Laptop casing
3. White Nike/Adidas cap
4. Good trekking bag tt is 60L or more
5. Anklet
6. Silver w Rose gold Necklace
7. Pretty n small "gai gai" bag
8. Teflon coated muffin pan/ Rolling pin / Piping Bag
9. Outdoor accessories (Field Chair, WaterBag, Hammock, Torchlight)
10. Water PROOF Digital Camera

Haha.. think tts it. some of the items r like super ex la.. pls dun try to get it for me if it's out of ur means... they r reserved for my rich friends... ahem ahem *hint hint* haha.. k hope this helps! i go do hw le! tata!

Selamat Hari Raya! :]