*ThiNk* 10.51pm

some words once u let it slip frm ur mouth, it can nvr be taken back.. u understand? somethings u said cannot be undone. theres no backspace or delete. when u hurt someone, it always leave a scar. even if u are forgiven, the scar wun go away.

pls tink b4 u sae anything out of anger or frustration.

todae went for recee with ting n alvin. we ate super alot. wahahha.. we mornin meet at 9am then travel to white sands. ate mac breakfast, then go there rain so heavily lahS! hahah.. then we bought 3 pkts of chips.. walk n eat walk n eat.. then aft tt went to eat ya kun kaya toast. hahaha.. veri nice! i always eat alot when im with theM! Zzzz.. we 3 greedy piggs! wahhha..

then aft tt on the train i fell aslp.. tru out my whole slp i can hear the both of them arguing bout wat juice to make lo.. oMg.. hahahha.. v funnie lehs they 2. dun let this plannin of NBE spoil our frenship o! hahahs..

i go slp le.. tired..

*wHeRe?* 4am

why does it keep coming back? its the same cycle over n over again.

there is alreadi no meaning to it anymore.

we are all drain out completely.

why is it so easy for some n so tough for me.

i need a place to rest for awhile...

10 june.. pls come quickly

*tHe GiRLs* 11.45am

heyys.. i juz woke up. wahahha.. ytd aft self defence went to orchard. i asked irenes nt to meet me in the end cuz she at hm then her there raining heavily so dun wan mafan her. so i went by myself. i went to shop ard.. bought some stuff frm body shop.. wanted to look for clothes but cldnt find any.. i had a friggin' headache tt was killing me but i bu gan xin juz to leave liddat aft coming so far.. so i bit my lips n went on.. hahah.. but in the end still nth.. onli got body shop merchandise.. the wisma body shop had a malay sales girl. she offer super gd service.. love tt branch!

then aft tt took the train homE... and guess whu i saw? ziwan n brenda! hahah.. we talk talk talk abt hows our life n last time thinGs.. hahha.. miss them.. then i tink i getting another joB during the hols.. hehehe... shall nt reveal to u all til im in. :p im loving every single thing i do.. so even if im v busy.. its alrite. :]

*LiFe is sO FRaGiLe* 11.06pm

heyys.. recently i receive 2 notice of ppl passing away.. and it was on the same day... mon. i was told tt mr wonG kiow (my math teacher is JSS) passed away. qiaolin n jieying came to tell me when they saw me outside Co-Op shop... was quite shock... then in the evening colin msg me and told me roderick's mom juz pass away.. he msg a few times during the last month. he said tt she was in critical condition n ask us to pray for her...

quite saddening to hear all these news.. i realli cant imagine wat if it was one of my close frens or my relatives? i realli cant imagine.. i dunno wat my 1st reaction wld be.. haiz.. life is realli too unpredictable.. u might tink tt lets leave anything unsaid til the day when u find courage. but have u though tt tml might nvr coMe...? realli v scary this thought.. i will have super alot of regrets if im to leave so quickly.

hmM.. aniwaes im looking forward to NBE n cambodia trip! :]

*eScaPe* 2.15am

i wan to run away frm all these shiT.

*i Realli duN unDeRsTaNd* 4.30am

i have a very heavy heart right nw.. alot alot alot of things is going tru my mind.. i think i finally noe but i do not understand... i shld be happy. but instead i feel like cryinG..

aniwaes i juz came back frm work.. todae i met up with weik n doreen n wayne yutai n vincent. @ bugis. we went national lib to do our poster for LM&BS. finally we came up with smth.. heez..then actually nasir, papa n some year 1s went out.. i going work so i cant go. then they wanted come settlers but no space.. Zzz.. in the end got bookings kena cancelled.. Zzz..

then i work upstairs with alvin. then got a grp of guys came in. one drunk til like mad lo... teach them jungle speed then they sae he too Seh to plae.. hahas..

then got some indians.. they are v v v nice ppl lo.. still rmb my namE... then aft work have to clean up upstairs.. yaohui di siaO me.. stupid idiot. alvin n yaohui sit on sofa while i vacuuming.. Zzz... then they keep telling each other things dun wan tell me.. :( then alot v funnit thiNGs happen. i make the tree fell.. sorrie kaeJeR :p

then aft tt we played Taboo.. cuz tml got one competition.. i wan to go leHs.. but got test nxt week.. zzz... then nw i dunnit slp.. lata meet nasir for breakfast then go kallang big walk liaO.. i nw waiting for 1st bus onli.. i wan to SLP!! :`(

*RuNniNg Zzz* 12.41am

todae i went for full poly50 training.. woO. not bad.. the running part was okay.. it was the power drill.. super Zzz.. 50 pumpings, 50 crunches, 40 spider pushup, 4 sets of 10secs leg raise i tink.. then 30 diamond pushups and 30 times i dunno wats tt call.. need partner to push ur legs de.. super shiok arHs.. nw my arms arh.. NUA~

hahhaa.. then back to club.. we kena lock outside.. so mani MC go run but no1 took the keys along.. in the end kena luff by MIT, ask us dun anyhw break the doorknob, or else club can close le.. idiots.. Zzz.. their club close ours oso haven lohs! :] then call kenneth to come dwn open for us.. frm home lohs.. super Zzz.. then in the end juz b4 he came dwn, chunlong manage to open with a laminated sheet.. funnies...

then aft tt go clementi eat.. papa veri fan todae.. hahaha.. but he is a nice papa laHs.. noe u concern. tks! :] then nw muz go do datashit liaOx.. hahaha.. see u!

*FuN!* 3.40am

ytd went to settlers with jing, yan, wen, eng and irenes. we luff til wenjie toe cramp lo. esp at snorta. hahaha.. then aft tt we went to walk ard then i meet ting, wayne n alvin n tai @ cityhall. we went marina changing appetite to eat. weixin came to join us afterwards. me n wayne had a tissue ball fight in the restaurant lo.. v idiotic hiM.. always bully mE.. Zzz... but realli v funniE. we luff til wanna die.. then ate mudpie! yUmMy! with marshmallow! hees!

then todae morning went newater. i woke up super late laHs.. then rush dwn.. then aft the tour went changi airport eat fastfood. then aft tt they went ice skating while me n weik went to meet alex. we plae the trolley at the airport lo. push here push there.. hahahs.. v fuN!! then go town meet alex. we took pics with over the hedge characters! sOoo cute!!! hehess..

then we go far east talk talk talk. i bought a cat keychain @ scape for $3.50! actually $5. but i bargain lo.. then alex n weik sae i cheat auntie.. hahaha..

then @ work. hweeminG bday. we ask the customers to cooperate with us. KJ went TCC to buy a cake. then customers help us sinG hapie bday when we switched off the lights.. so niCEe... then aft tt smth super funniE happen.. tink dun mention here.. i laughed til i wan to die lo.. went to tell Leon.. then tt stupid leon super zek ark de lohs.. hahhaha.. cannt stand it.

let u see soMe piCs

super retardeD!














kawaii neH!

*PoSeiDoN* 1.23am

wOo! juz nw aft sch went to have a cap ball frenly match with my buddy class.. they are quite gd players loHs! v zai leHs them. esp rachel. she netballer leh dun see she so fair. hahas..

club the stupid sports cupboard kena seal.. then i hafta go EEE borrow ball for the match. i go in sae: Hi. can i borrow balls? then all the guys stare n me n started laughing laHs.. they ask me: wat kinda of balls u wan? -_- idioTs lo.. hahas...

then the match they plae super lonG lo.. they nt tired de.. wahahha.. qiaNg lEhS! then i hafta leave halfway for poly50 traininG.. weik pulled me go.. or else i dun feel like goinG.. dui bu qi weik. noe its my responsibility to go since i alreadi promised to participate.. juz nw realli juz dun feel like runniNg.. but im glad i went. cuz burn off alot of faTs.. wahahha.. run 4 rounds track. then sprint up slope. then sprint of track. i had to leave during the power trainiNg..

went to meet ling xiang, yulin, wei zheng, yong he @ orchard for movie. suppose to be OCIP gathering de. then in the end onli they turn up.. hahah but nevertheless i had lotsa fun! they nvr change much. yulin n lina still so pretty! then the guys shave botak oso not much diff. wahahha..
we watch poseidon @ lido. v nice show. like it! hees.. then aft tt actually weizheng yonghe n me went to catch last train, budden they decided go plae arcade. so i went off 1st.. heez..

tml going meet eng they all. yay! happy vesak! :]

*!* 7.25pm

iM friggin' brokE laHs! juz nw aft sch went to run stadium. 2.4k with weik n weix. L2G5 sign up for big walk liaOs! yay! hahaha.. we all healthy lifestyle de.. wahhaha.. so happie.. hehes..

then juz nw went town buy my shoEs.. nike air force. it cause me alot of heart paiN.. i wan to take up more shift liaOx! anyone dun wan shift can throw to mE! Zzz...

recently have been spending alot alot of money.. still owe cw money.. i realli muz tonE dwn liaOs.. i will save up kays! promise dun anyhow spend le.. all tt i need i buy liaO.. hees.. muz SAVE!

sat going neWater plant. so earli in the morn loH! Zzz.. fri going settlers with jing they all. yays! hehehes.. so lookin forward. tml cap ball with buddy class. woOTs! rawks!

*sE BeH BeH* 1.15am

hahas yea! its amanda the sE bEh BeH! wahahha.. so long din see her liaOx. juz nw met up with her n yan @ IMM to have dinner. she super sE la! 1st ting she do is to pull my skirT. haO er arh u manda! whahhaa.. then she keep "fu mo" me.. hahahahhas.. u nvr changE lo! then she update me on her life lo.. she told me she confess to Yong **** to liking him laHs! oMg.. i realli admire her. i was shocked cuz i din noe she will like hIm.. n 2ndly shocked at her couraGe! i will nvr in a million years have the courage to admit to someone i like him laHs... manda u my heRo! hahahas..

she oso got join singapore idol aud n huan le dian feng aud. she sing super nice laH! judges deaf nvr let her pass! Zzz... then we eat liaO walk walk then went hm le..

todae vincent nt feeling v well.. hope he's alrite le. realli hoPe L2G5 will be happie always o. dun let mood affect us k. if im unhappie i see u all happie i will also happie le! juz dun ignore me can le. :( hehes.. love u all.!

JuNe i not working le.. getting ready for cambodia.. i abit scare.. dunNo y.. when i comE back i wun be able to see cw le. heard he going into arMy ard juLy. sigHs- then heard full timers also goinG to leave le.. hope all of them can staY.. miss ThEm..

*muAcKs!* 11.36pm

im still waiting for anyone to return me my pencil case.. the more i tink bout it, the sadder i get.. Zzz... sighs-

todae whole day looking for ppl to help me book chalet. finally i asked weixiN. she manage to help me fiND! n v fast book liaO.. i nearli big headed le lo when i cldnt finD. tks xin! realli realli tks! i noe i owe u alot liaO.. hahha.. tks! :]

i wan to do homework but no mood. i wan to remind myself again tt im in poly cuz i din make it in JC, i cannot allow myself to make the same mistake again.. time is precious. i realli need to start working hard.. this is year 2, not year 1! u tink u can start revision last min like u used to? no way! year 2! okay! i cant disappoint my parents, not now.. not when they have so high hopes.. i noe i can de. i can balance dE! :]

i miss squash n touch.. tt day i stayed back awhile to watch touch rug traininG. realli miss those times. i wanted to try going for SP touch training, but im afraid i wun wan to leave. wan to find someone to plae touch with me someday. din noe chin chin inside touch. hees.. n squash. i playin recreational every wed! yay! hehhes.. cuz got buddy to plae with me. kevin and co.! wahhaha..

nw i go do hw liaO! tata! :]

*LiFe is FuNniE...* 4.12

its funnie how i feel like penniNG dwn my thoughts aft i saw wat she wrote.

funnie how nostalgic i feel all of a sudden

funnie how all those details frm so long ago came back vividly into my mind

funnie wat she says remind me so much of u

funnie how everything ended

funnie how much i feel like going back to when there's nth for me to miss

funnie why i tot of tt place when my teacher ask me to close my eyes n tink of a place where im comfortable in

funnie how this feeling crept so suddenly into me n left so abruptly

its funnie how i feel like tinking abt u all of a sudden.

*wOrKiNg raWkS* 3.23am

heyyS! juz came back frm work. todae wasnt as smooth as last week. but nevertheless, i enjoyed work. i woke up ard 4 plus todae.. my god rite.. haha was suppose to meet alex @ 1pm @ cine de. budden i woke up at 12 with a headache. i cant crawl up frm my bed.. i ask to postponE to 3, budden he ask me rest @ hoMe.. so i continue slpinG. but aft tt he send me a msg ask me meet @ 3 lo.. budden i din see cuz i slpinG.. then he called me @ 2.30. i still feel terrible, so he ask me rest. sorrie sista cldnt acc u. noe u had a bad day toDae.. dui Bu Qi. i treat u ice cream next timE k! :]

then i woke up ate porridge n took a bus to woRk. worked upstairs with hwee miNG.. she v funnie. always so enthu de. she speaks v fast oSo.. haha.. then the crowd todae quite alrite.. budden diff tables started asking for diff gamEs when hwee miNg went dwn to have her dinneR.. so i became supEr Zzzz.. realli dunno wat to do.. cant ans soME table when they call.. sorrie to thoSe customers i din serve well. :(

then had a grp of guys at A1. v funnie.. they wanted to play munchkin.. i was hoping they plae a dog's life. but in the end they wanted munchkinS.. then 2 of the guys frm tt table went to plae RunEbouNd.. n hweemiNG was tryiNG to help them though she dunno hw to plae.. then munchkins im nt veri sure.. onli played once.. so in the end i confessed i duNNo hw to plae.. but 1 of them noe hw to.. then they jokiNGly ask to see my manager.. i sae my manager oso dUnno hw to plae. then they laughed then sae they wan to go liaOs.. hahahs.. in the end they taught me.. but i had to leave halfway to serve other tables..

they stayed til v late.. then hweeming played munchkins with theM.. all of us chatted abit.. they stayed til 2am lo.. til i was sweepin the flooR. hahah. v nice ppl. then wee kok send me n guan jie hm.

HmM tml guai guai stay hm do homework.. hehes... mon go buy shoEs.. :]

*MiSsiNg sMtH* 12.45am

i lost my pencil casE! im so super sadded.. this morn when i packed my bag i cldnt find it.. i tot it might be in the clubhse as i rmb ytd taking out to let alex write the bday card. but juz nw during break i went there, i cannot finD it. im super bothered by it. i hate to lose thiNGs.. my fav shaker is inside. and my muji markers.. :` and i juz bought a pen n a highlighter ytd! haiz.. and my fav black ball pen is inside toO.. siaN diaO lo.. sighs- but tks dory for keep lending me stationaries. :]

then wanted to donate blood. but nt enuff timE... as we had lessons.. and the drive ended when we end class. Zzz...

then aft sch was soccer match with buddy class.. im the ball magnet lo! kena hit in the face 3 times.. but outta 3, i blocked 2.. heez.. suaY si le.. aniwaes we ended in a draw. then i went to meet sooeng, caiyan, caipinG, yujing, benji n irenes @ JP. we had dinner n chatted.. haha v funnie.. miss thEm :]


Taken with Benji's phonE.
Top: Yujing, Benji
Bottom: Caiyan, Irenes, Me!


recently, i find tt one of my close fren doesnt seem to be the same towards me. on the surface, everythinG seem fine.. but i juz feel it... seems to be avoiding me. but we still talked n play. but the feeling is different. i tink tt it a difficult timE tt my fren is going tru.. so i guess i will juz leave the matter alone for the moment. hopefully everythiNg will be alrite.

juz nw watched SVU, a woman ask, "why do u want to keep it inside of u n nt tell?" then another answer, "becuz if i tell it to others, it becomes real. but if i keep it within me, i can pretend tt its not." :]

*mY NiKe aiR DuNk!* 12.55am

heyys heyys! u noe wat? i fouND my nike air duNK! wahahha.. purple n gold.. cool ehS! hehes..

juz nw aft sch went to plae squash with kevin. the stupid person at the office made me wait so loNg.. Zzzz.. realli idiotic lo. hmm then i plae til v shuanG.. sweat sweat sweat. it has been so loNg since i did not. hehes.. then i played with kenneth toO..

then aft nomination n sorting out of ECs. we went to qway. L2G5.. xcept alvin. we went to shop for doreen's shoe, n i found my shoE! wahahha.. then me n doreen bought a necklace. same de.. wooden cross. hehes.. nice nice. i tried on alot of specs but they all so dun suit me.. Zzz..

then i went off earlier cuz nasir bag locked inside club, i go back open door for hiM. he went to donate blooD lo.. i dun dare leHs.. veri scare of needle.. Zzz.. but i wan to donate! gRrr.. tml last day le.. hope i have the courage to.. then aft tt went with him to daisO.. he wan to buy box filE.. then we walked ard n went to eat taco bell! hehes... nice nice...

fri go buy specs liaO! yay! hehees.. tml got street soccer tournament with buddy class. hahah.. excitinG!

*MiXEd* 1.53am

eh wth lo... this is so er xin. i duno wat to write. so mani things i wan to sae but i dun wish to write here... i juz tink tt... well i duNno wat u all are thinking... mabbe u all cant see.. mabbe im not showing.. wateva. i hate wat my brain is going tru right now.

i realli dunno wat kind of a person are u. is wat i tinking all wronG? i realli wish sO.. do u noe how i feel when i saw tt? i try not to let it bother me. i keep smilinG. i din feel tt smiling was a chore. til u made me so tired i realli cant smile animore.

i oso need an exit myself. i realli wish to go away frm all of these right nw. dun ask.

u are the onli one i attempted to talked to bout this. but u made me feel guilty about how im feelinG... n it realli sucks. i din even get the chance to finish telling u how i feel. n now i cant.

all my gd frens are trying to help the whole world. are trying to please the whole world. but actually who i need is juz someone who agrees. juz simple as tt. u are nt a superhuman. u cant help everyoNe..

i regret showing my weaker side infront of u.

i keep wanting to tink tt i dun have a problem til u show up. mabbe i seem too stroNG to need any help. tks alot.

*K-Box, adiDaS JaCkeT n a 100 buCks* 12.25am

heyYs! todae was great! juz nw in the morn went k-box with zhen ye, weik, evelyn, yunzhen n elainE.. they v FuNniE.. evelyn got a gd voice. zhen yE oso! but he v shY to sinG.. but aft tt warm up le then alrite.. his voice like aH-xiNg frm xing yue tuaN. hahas.. then aft tt they went with their classmates to watch movie. weik go find his sec sch fReNs.. i go walk ard.

i go leftfoot n saw this green adidas jacket. So nice! the colour v nice. i try it on. i like it! hehe.. then i saw the nike air dunk tt i like ToO! omG.. i calculate.. add total ard 260 plus.. but i nt enuff moneY.. so i go settlers see whether i got pay anot.. then reach there le CW help me check, but no paY.. Zzz.. then i sae i need monEy.. then they ask me how muCh.. i sae $100 bucks.. then CW take frm his wallet.. then i grab the monEy.. i tot he joking onli.. but he realli lend me lo... omG. he so niCe!!! i so thankfuL.. he sae i lucky he ytd got outinG.. ppl return him moneY.. then i ask him he enuff money anot. but he juz smile smile.. tks leH chinwee! u r a v nice persOn! :] i will return u the $100 asap..

kaejer my boss oso super nice! he ask me i reali need arh.. then if need can take my pay earlier. but i sae nvm, cw lend me le..

then i go citylink see whether got other designs.. but adidas shop under reno. then i go marina sq. then weik come join me. then aft tt go back cine buy n went to meet food game GLs for dinner @ NYDC wheelock. eat aloT! super fuLL! so sinful lo.. the desserts... yUm~ then we walked passed Fish n Co. keep di siaO-ing alex.. wahhaha. even sinG alex no hair! wahahha..

muz go liaO.. tml loNGggg day!


k-boxErs! @ cinE k-BoX


soMe oF the FoODgAmE GLs @ N.Y.D.C wheelock.


NeOpRiNT usiNg my CaM! hees


my KoffiNs partner kiSsing her LaoGoNg..

*BRrrr so coLd!* 3.09am

juz nw went out with weixin to towN. din manage to get my jacket lo. siaNz! tml going k-box in the moRn wih weikang zhen ye eve n yunzhen. yay! aft tt class outiNG at kbox oso! wahahhaha.. siaO lehs.. then at nite go nydc! yay! with food game GLs!

lookin 4ward neHs! hehhees..

hMm. nt much feeliNgs.. hope i finally did it. waited so long for tis day. i have to go tru one more tiME b4 can confirM. wish me luCk! :]