eve of new year's eve. [Thurs 30 Dec 2004. 11.54pm]
hrmz. todai was last training day. colin made me waited for 1 hr standing outside the cafe like some pathetic idiot. in the end auntie came and open door then i get to go in. not long aft bessy came. then alex then maybel. we started by role playing. then aft tt she taught us games. was toldt hat alex and josh is leaving to work for the coffee club tml. haiz.. oso dunno why they wanna go.

then bessy went off. left me to follow colin ard. then i was feeling veri awkward. dunno wat to do. walk ard... stand there block ppl. then eugene ask me, u got nth to do? then i sae no. then he sae then wat r u doing here for? then i sae wait for colin. he was so super rude la..

then he oso veri funnie la. colin was pushing the table then knock into his butt. then he was so fierce. hahha.. shout veri loud. but i tink he is liddat one la. they all used to him le. keep laughing.

yawns.. start work wed. tired. tml still got in the morn. yawns...

mY PERFECT JoB [Tue 28 Dec 2004. 10.34pm]
yeap. thats right. i get paid to have fun. haha.. although the pay is not as gd as chikuyotei. but the place is so totally me. and my manager has been veri nice todae. as he teaches me the things in the kitchen, he let me sample different house special drinks. i made a drink called purple dinosaur. it was blueberry syrup plus sprite. yum.. and the best part is, i get free food and drinks during the training period. wahaha..

yeap my job is crew @ settlers cafe in clarke quay. super cool that place. coz the theme is boardgames. so my job is to prepare drinks and serve food and sit dwn to pale games with the customers. and the manager is totally understanding. he allows me to work part time my call... so i get to work in chikuyotei in the morn til 2 plus. and then go over to settlers.

he taught me a few games juz nw. mostly card games though. there's 2 more newcomers with me juz nw. if i remember correctly the name is betsy and gok tong. hrmmzz.. then met alex and eugene.

the onli bad thing is the pay is $1.50 lesser than at chikuyotei. so that makes is $4.50. but i dun realli mind. cuz i love the environment. yeap.. cant wait to go there tml!

Haiz... [Mon 27 Dec 2004. 1.24am]
jielin is sad.. but i dunno wat to sae to her.. haiz.

oso abit irritated with one person. but nvm la.. let it go.......

ytd the jerk came and talk to me.. i was controlling not to be sarcastic. idiot. he deserve what he has nw.

aft work juz nw went with fengling to take a look at chatterbox. then went to the M restaurant. wah super nice la. we step out of the elevator is the observation lounge i tink... wah the atmosphere is my favourite!!! veri dark then can see the clear night sky and the lights dwn below. breath-taking....

then wait for papa to fetch me. he drove me to buy cha kway tiao... hahha.. so fattening. arghh

sQuEezZzzZeEeeE! [Sun 26 Dec 2004. 3.26pm]
yawns. woke up at 1 plus 2.. wahh... super tired.. ytd write xmas card til fell aslp. hrmmz...

went to service with eng in the morn ytd. at kallang indoor stadium. we went late so onli got seats at the overflow room. then actually can go balcony one. juz when we were about to enter the door, the person come stop us sae u all cannot enter, it's full.. arghh..

aft tt went to meet caiyan and irenes at lakeside. i was talking on the phone with melissa at the busstop when i saw xizhou across the road. i waved to him then he kept lookin at me as if im some crazee woman. hahaha.. then aft that then he waved back.

then we went to mel's hse. irenes dearie bought me a anklet frm perlini silver! wow... super nice la.. she knew i wanted an anklet. thankewwww so much! :] then the food at mel's hse was fabulous! hahaha.. kareen was there too. we talked and play games then siti came. then irenes and caiyan had to leave. then siti and kareen. so left me and eng and mel.. we were talking on the floor then eng fell alsp.

so me and mel had a nice chat bout lotsa things. i fill her in on lotsa stuff and she told me bout poly life. i told her bout the jerk and we had fun making up stories bout him. melissa is the onli person who knows him so its best to talk to her bout this. hehe.. then aft tt we went to sent sooeng off. then i went hm too..

talked to xizhou online ytd... he ask me some qns which set me thinking alot. i realli hope that i was wrong... i hope to noe b4 it's too late..

merry christmas to all! :]

aWwWwkWaRd-NeSs! [Sat 25 Dec 2004. 12.21am]
hohoho! merry christmas to all! i juz tried replying to derek's sms... tried 5 times le.. sending failed... stupid system... haven even finish sending my xmas greetings.. tsk! hmm abit hungry nw.. hahha.. juz nw went to mini jss gathering at koksiew's hse.

kekke.. wenting was there thats y i sae jss. if not is 2/4 gathering liaOz.. super fun lo! i realli had a gd time... aft work i met wenjie at boonlay there buy things go up to ks hse. gangyi opened the door for us.. then kangwei, jason, mengfei, jingboon alreadi there liaoz. sooeng came aft that. then jason brought green curry! yum yum. wenting agar agar. eng fried rice. wenjie ice cream. gangyi sparkling juice. ks free flow of drinks. meng hotdogs, crabsticks and chicken wings. i did mix fruit cocktail. yummie.. all so nice.. kekek.. boon brought pringles..

then we waited for most to turn up. played a bit mahjong then went to eat! yumm.... the food was great. then we watch TV. then went to plae inside ks room. si ren gangyi super idiotic la.. he farted... but we were all busy laughing and talking no one heard. then i sitting beside him. then he was laughing and asking me whether i can hear him fart. super er xin la hE!!!! hahaha.. then i kept hitting him. that er xin idiot.

we played a game muz call change names one. confusing. then plae til laugh til mad diaO.. hahahha.. then i keep calling kangwei gangyi. even call him wang kangwei. hahaha.. then yongquan and kangwei and gangyi realli went mad playing cards. aft that they left earli... then the rest continue eating, watching tv and plae mahjong. hahaha..

i went to buy presents with fengling ytd. walk whole of town til nealri fainted.. hahah.. then saw nelson in heerens. aft that met up with si nu ren (jielin) to exchange presents... hahaha..

kk merry christmas to all! i go write xmas cards le.. hahah.. ya i noe its like super late liaO.. but beta late then nvr! :]

Da Ma Jiang. [Wed 22nd Dec 2004. 10.38pm]
hrmmz... i juz came back frm K-Box with Amanda, Jia and Bel.. woah.. amanda's voice is realli not bad! she can sing quite high although she always sings guys' part. zhen li hai! then the k-box waiter veri funnie.. he talked super fast then we keep asking him to repeat. then he slow down until one word by one word. then he kept reminding us we are in room 38 whenever we saw him outside. hahha cuz Jia lost her way when she coming back frm the toilet.

ohh and ytd aft work went to downtown east chalet! is sajc 04s62 gethering. the BBQ food was fantastic. i was the marshmallow chef. hahaha.. then elize's fried rice.. i love it.. yum! i miss them lots.. we sat there talk talk talk.. was a nice feeling to see goondo sammy and gang again. hahaha.. sighs...

then aft BBQ we went bowling. i din bowl though. then arcade then buy food go back chalet plae asshole daidee. hahaha.. juz learnt that game. then u noe b4 that sooeng was smsing me to go for her church function. then aft that i saw her at downtown east cheers!!! wahaha.. so qiao la! i saw yean chin 1st. then she led me to eng. yie mun oso... frank oso there. wahahha.. nice surprise.

then aft tat i went back chalet with my class plae awhile i siaNz liaO.. so i go find eng they all. tot they at downtown east. i walk halfway le she tell me in costa sands... siaNz diao.. then so dark and late in the nite le.. i walk there veri scary lo. at the entrance there got a few idiotic guys kept di siaoing.. super irritating. 1st time felt scared walking alone. hahah..

then aft tat eng and frank picked me up halfway. then go their chalet wanted to plae mahjong. then got a few of eng's frens sitting outside. one offered us a beer. hahha.. then the table was occupied so me and eng and frank went to the beach. we sit there talk for awhile then her fren sae can go back to plae le. so i went into her chalet..

her fren ai ting taught me hw to plae. then i plae with eng, a guy frm commonwealth last time, samuel and aiting was my tutor. haha.. then the samuel guy was veri red in the face.. cuz he drank alot.. then i can smell his liquor breath... hahha.. but he was nice la.. he behaves like someone i noe of.. quite alike.

then aft that the commonwealth guy dunno go where aiting took over his seat so i was alone. then got a guy in white shirt came to guide me along. he was oso veri nice and friendly. then SUDDENLY dunno who. tink is samuel so got a kaka behind me. at the door there. then i stun dao... then i dun dare move. i ask wat izzit. cockroach? then he said cockroach. then i wanted to scream liaO.. but i tink nt veri nice. cuz some girls slping on the floor. then i was trying to hard not to scream and run everywhere. so i slowly walk and hide behind eng's chair. hahaha.. then aiting went to use plastic bag and catch it! she super brave la. hahahha

aft that samuel admitted that he din catch becuz he was afraid of it too! hahahhaha! they realli veri funnie ppl.. i din feel awkward at all inside the chalet. veri nice ppl there.. then aft tat dunno hw become the white shirt guy take over samuel place then samuel guide me along. needless to say i lose terribly. hahah.. cuz he oso new to the game. then aft tat veri tired liaO.. eng keep falling aslp during the game. hahahha.. me, eng, yan qing, yiemun and aiting went to the beach to watch sunrise. but cannot see anything. left me and eng sit there talked til daybreak..

i went back chalet slp awhile. check out went to eat Mac.. then go kbox liaO..

kekeke... btw! i met my future husband 2 days ago at wisma! show u the photo lata! whahaha.. i saw him outside charles and keith. then i keep lingering there. dunno wan to approach not... then finally i muster up enuff courage. i went to tapped him on the shoulder and ask him is he david. then he sae ya. then i ask to take a photo with him.. he intro me to his sis and she help us take the photo.. hahha.. i wanted to have a no contact photo.. in the end he put his arm ard my shoulders! hahhahaha.. so i seized the chance.. and did the same. heh heh heh! =p *mesmerize*

As Realization Dawn On Me... [Sat 18 Dec 2004. 10.22pm]
yummie... i juz baked finish BROWNIES!!! hehhee... still letting it cool.. i used all good ingredients leh.. hersheys chocolate chips.. yum yum! hehhee..

juz nw went SPCA with benji. then he veri idiotic la.. disturb me all the way. then we stayed for quite a while in the pound. aft that go eat.. hmm he told me some things that put some pieces of my life puzzle together. well.. i had quite a dramatic week nw... so far this is the 3rd shock. well mabbe shock is too strong a word. surprise bah...

then was thinking bout it all the way back on the train. i dun believe i had been so stupid. till nw i still dun....... haiz i wish i can talk to someone who knows everything bout this. im certainly in lotsa doubt nw.

MeMoRieS... [Fri 17 Dec 2004. 11.14pm]
Week: first Date: 1-7-96 Weather: Sunny

I start this at 10.21pm.
Today at MT lesson I get a pencil. A pencil that put lend inside.
I get it because I paste the compohs on the jotter book neatly
But I tell you a secret, the compohs is my mummy paste.
I has finished pasting the whole book. I mean my mummy.
From the other book award I going to paste my self. I finished this at 10.42pm

***The extract above has gone through no corrections. All spelling and grammatical errors are purely my own mistake***

yeap.. that was an entry taken frm my 1st diary. Hmm.. the 1st time i revealed my entries in my personal diary. haha.. i had never let anyone read my PDs b4... not even the closest person to me.. they are always locked up safely... i think... hahhaa... the locks are not veri secure though...

i juz read through all 3 and a half book of my PDs.. wah.. i have been writing since 1996. p3? hmm.. cool heh... hahaha.. i read tru them lotsa times already... sometimes the made me cry and sometimes they made me laugh like mad.. hahah..

i juz feel that life is all so simple then... so innocent... my entries then are all short and simple.. and nth complicated. i dun show signs of frustration or anger or sadness... but as times goes by.. the entries starting to contain words like: tears. hate. cry. never forgive.

I guess im quite immune and used to sadness le ba... when i open my cupboard to look at all those letters and presents frm friends and ppl i loved.. i dun cry animore. its quite hard to actually make me cry nowadays.. if it was a year ago, u juz had to let me listen to Jay's song. hahaha.. im listening to his Qi Li Xiang album nw.. hehehe.. love his voice... :]

i actually din plan to write about all these.. dunno why suddenly juz found myself typing. hmm... there are lotsa things i wan to sae. but find it difficult to express them nw. my dad's back. he's disturbing my thoughts. hahah.. cuz he keep fussing with Piyo. Since that hamster came into the family, i have been thrown off my throne. hahah.. that little cheeky mousey. bet he's laughing at me right nw. arghh...

K-BoXeRs! [Wed 15 Dec 2004. 2.42am]
hey hey! todae sucks.. tomomi san looks like she needed help for dinner tonite. thus i stayed to help.. went for the job interview during the break. it sucks too.. have to pay money for the camps. arghh... then the customers todae all hungry for alcohol... sot diao... the western 1 customers are TOTALLY IDIOTIC... hesther kept calling them si ba gong.. wahahha.. they keep complaining bout our service and kept calling for tomomi san. stupid drunken men.

i manage to eat the dessert juz nw! forgot wat izzit call le. got rice ball and red bean paste and jelly inside.. plus peppermint leaf... veri nice! yummy.. helen san ask us to eat one. so i faster eat. hahha.. then got free drinks oso.. dunno why todae so gd. they ate macha ice cream ytd dinner shift la! haiz! i wasn't there.. arghh...

then oh yea! me, caiping, meng, benjamin, hoeren and irenes went to k-box ytd.. as in mon.. hehhe.. super fun la! i miss them so much... :`] my 1st time to k-box. i went to join them aft work. once i step in benji is singing Jay's "Gui Ji".. wah!!! so nice!!! but i lept making fun of him dao he dun wan to sing liaO. hahha.. we sang alot of diff genre songs. hahha.. and diff generation too.. =p then actually is 2 to 7 one.. we sing til 9 plus.. hahah.. cuz they nvr come chase us. so shiok! love zhou jie luN!

Man and Their Huge Ego. [Mon 13 Dec 2004. 12.36am]
hmm juz nw at work.. i work lunch onli.. not mani ppl.. then got this weird guy...

he call me.. then i tot he wan to order smth else or wat.. then he ask me wats the best place in Singapore to bring a fren to.. lets sae its someone special... a girl la.. i wanted to tease him le then remember myself being the waitress and he the customer.. hahha.. then he ask me lotsa thing.. keep asking me to recommend him places... then i bo bian.. stand there talk to him til hesther come serve food i still talking.. hahah.. then hesther thought i wat.. why so interested... hahah..

then aft tat i left him to eat.. then i go discuss with them bout the places to go.. then in the end recommend him to come back to eat.. hahaha.. then he sae yah thats nt a bad idea.. i even recommend him changi airport and sentosa.. still describe to him bout the suspension bridge and towers.. hahhaa.. veri funni la.. he's a malaysian born grow up in sydney...

then aft that he thanks me and left le lo...

okay.. im super in shock nw... smth juz happen... okay nvm... refer to PD.

then tomy called me frm US juz nw!!! so long nvr talk to him le.. actually sort of miss him la.. he was fun to bully.. hahah.. hope to see him soon.. my hands are cold... go off le!

:( [Fri 10 December 2004. 10.49pm]
haiz... im abit sad.. i feel sad cannot get together with the cip team to do the presentation... post expedition stuff.. feels like im out of it alreadi... i miss all of them la... haiz... esp jielin, yulin, lina... haiz...

recently got some unhappy episodes la... with a fren... but i tink onli i not happy... he somehow doesn't sense it... quite irritated.. but nvm lar.. dun feel like talking bout it... juz hope i wun burst...

and another person has been acting strangely lately.. hope that person is alright...

well work is good.. chris is friendlier ever since i work as nakaban (food caller). she veri funnie lar.. the way she laugh.. looks sarcastic, but she is really heartily laughing... she enjoys being sarca oso.. haha..

hmm... ceres and adeline taught me lotsa bad things.. hahha.. like eating customer's food... calling the sushi chef "ai de" (the short one).. the female kitchen helper, godzilla... haha.. and GM is no nit sae name one.. juz use hand sign... put both arms out to suggest a bloated belly... hahha.. adeline sae if ceres chest sag then will become GM's belly le.. hahha.. so idiot lor.. summore she sae when we reporting for lunch.. then when she sae finish turn the corner, we saw GM chatting with the master chef.. hahha.. we kept tryin to control our laughter la...

then got that stupid chef in the kitchen.. one call ah biao... always di siao us one.. he's juz like jss guys.. hahha.. cannot blame. last time he lived in taman jurong... but he quite nice la... we call him ti gor pek, or pipi.. hahha..

yeap.. so work has been fun.. i like shiang lan (the cashier) and hestha oso... coz hestha resembles doreen (my bro's gf)... heh heh...

1st day of work at Chikuyotei Pte Ltd. [Sun 5th Dec 2004. 1am]
its my 1st day of work todae... wah... can sae is abit shock la... budden still quite fun. coz at 1st tot is cashier. then she ask me to start as waitress cum food caller 1st. (Btw is at a Jap restaurant in Meritus Mandarin). then muz wear a kimono! so cute la... abit uncomfortable... coz muz tie til veri tight.. but quite okay la... shld get use to it soon.. muz learn quite abit of Jap... got to know a few ppl.. they are all quite nice la.. Tomomi is the operation manager.. she wear green kimono.. then ceres.. she in sp nw. she is the one who looks aft me la.. teach me all the stuff.. adeline.. she veri pretty... and then Iris... the older one.. hehe.. and another girl.. is a part timer for MM... kena ask to work at Chikuyotei (the Jap restaurant). She veri funnie oso.. abit tom boyish...

then juz nw got one family at dining area 2... got 3 kids and a dad.. then one of the boy ate 2 bowls of KOBE beef la!! and he ask me whether his KOBE beef is ready. then Iris told him she will hurry the kitchen.. then he wait til the KOBE beef come but the rice cool le.. then he ask to change to warmer rice.. wah.. so spoilt la! but i cannot sae anythin... hahah 5 star restaurant le.. i dun wan to eat fried sotong so soon..

then got 3 person eat til $600 plus.. u can imagine the price of the food there... hahah.. even if there is staff discount i wun eat there la.. haha..

2/4 BBQ 1st Dec.. [Sun 5 Dec 2004. 12.27pm]
heyeee! hmm i wrote an entry ytd. but dunno accidentally deleted it.. then lazee to write liaO.. hehhe.. aniwaes i wrote bout the 2/4 BBQ.

it was at ECP... pit 26. derek was having his chalet there too.. then aft that me, yujing, irenes, gangyi and jason went to his chalet to bath. then we set off on foot to changi... on the way gangyi told that scary story.. yujing scream til so loud la! hahah.. then aft that we walk for about 15 mins le we end up in the same place... the tunnel there.. we din manage to find a way out.. abit creepy...

we walk til about 3 plus am ended up in bedok mrt station. haha.. so idiot... then we so tired le la... then bth, walk til tanah merah wait for 1st train to take us to changi airport.

the 1st train was veri empty. then we play daidee on the floor.. hahah.. then reach changi airport le... gangyi 1st time there.. hahha.. then he act til he came frm the mountains liddat... hahah darn funnie la... take photo here take photo there... then the sky train he oso veri amaze.. hahah.. slpt at the viewing mall for a while... then aft that go BK eat breakfast and headed hm...



us at the ECP walkway... heading to derek's chalet.


posing at bus stop we pass by..


hehehe...


look at jing!




at the escalator of Tanah Merah MRT.


si pai kias.. haha


gy gaily resting on jason's thighs...


daidee on train!


the sillies (part 1)


the sillies (part 2)

Thurs 2nd dec 2004. 1,20am