juz went to read smth.

n it ended up with me feelin sadds.

sianz.

sadds cuz i have a feeling this time it is realli different.

n it wun be solve so easily again.

i really have no idea.

i realli wanted to talk, to tell. but there is such a big distance nw.

sometimes some things arent juz all talk. action helps too.

when u have too many ppl surrounding u. some will tend to feel neglected. but usually it isnt those tt r close, or used to be close.

*After School* 5pm

sch ended early todae. am waiting for Alvin to go eat so come here slackk...

hmm... v long nvr update le. got alor of event going on.

sch started! n my hectic work schedule has ended too! which means im back to the sch girl who seldom go cafe anymore..

training for intercons has begun too. and we r workin on sports league. gonna be fun! :] real lookin forward to Ultimate Frisbee too. the game where i get to scream my head off! wahahhaha

oh yah talkin bout tt. Last Mon the 1st day of sch. went to attend the compulsory staff nite cum mooncake festival celebrations @ Settlers. met up with Kyla, Weiquan, Terence aft sch. then we went to play Ultimate Frisbee @ the FC3 field while waiting for Yvonne's lesson to end! hahaha super funnie larhhs.. 1st time plae Sports w Settlers ppl! :]

then went there to eat all the goodies! played Cluzzle, Loco, Gesture... then chill with a few of them n head off home le.

2nd day in sch i keep falling aslp larhs! realli v tired. then went to work cuz replacing Guan Jie. Then v slack tt day, got to talked with Chapman. Hmm.. he is really someone who sees things clearly. i oso dunno hw to explain. but talking to him is enlightening. hahaha... he views tings in his own perception but have such a logical reason tt i have to agree. frm him i got to noe tt things arent always the way they seem too!

then todae is thurs. tml is IC le! oh yea! lookin forward!!! so long nvr get to hang out w CLS ppl le! hehes.. k la. i go le! tata!

*Ah.* 2.17pm

Nw im in the Loft. Finally gt time to settle dwn n rest abit. Doing FYP research. Juz tot of coming to write abit since it has been a long time.

Past two days work was horrible. Crowd frm hell. :S

I sorta lost my cool ytd. Nvr did i once did it to my workmates. I hafta admit i was irritated b4 tt. sighs- im so sorry. i felt guilty when i was on the cab tinking. dui bu qi.

Tirings. Sch is reopening soon. N i will be graduating soOn! have mixed feelings. but nw FYP is more impt! Zzz go liao. tata!

today was a happy day.

i was very very scared. i was juz praying in my mind to anyone, anything. not today. please...

i was so scared.

i dunno wat can i do except to be strong. to be the pillar to fall back on.

she is so strong. i reli wish there is smth i can do.

im blessed with the six sense, but not the sturdiness.

i will fulfil my promise.

(i juz need a space to write my tots)

*Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

wanted to post smth to complain de. but decided nt to aft talkin to a person, feeling much better although we din talk bout wat i was going to complain about. wahaa!

i din go for work :( feeling unwell when on the train to work. called the cafe, alight n took the train back to JE. tks Fadli for takin over my shift. :]

felt the Earthquake juz nw! tot i was hallucinating or smth. felt my bed shaking. then i tink is earthquake le. go take a glass of table to put on table n see. but dun have le. haha.. so cool! but i wun wan it to happen in Singapore.

hm.. i talked to 3 person on the phone todae! Darren, Willis n Wayne. v longg nvr talk on the phone le! i used to hate talkin on the phone for long. but nw so long nvr do it le i quite like to talk on the phone. hahaha.. although all 3 of them din last v long.

Was actually feeling sick when Willis called, budden he made me tink n tink of smth which made me luff n luff. always enjoy talkin to him. he is 1 of those i can realli share my tots with in Settlers. kinda miss him. hope he is doing well nw :]

kays i gtg. if im late tml i will die. hahha see u!

Okayys! im back again! to do this Quiz. i was tagged by Alan n Kelly.

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

1) Nintendo DS Lite
2) Nike Shoulder Bag
3) Crabtree n Evelyn Hand Moisturizer
4) Havianas Slim Flip Flops
5) A Happy Birthday :]

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you are? Cute Alan n Cute Kelly!

2. Your relationship with him/her is? Alan is my Er Zi and Kelly is my somehow related relative. my niece or smth. hahaha

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? Alan is v pervertic n bu yao liaN. but still cute cuz is my Er zi. wahahhaa.. @ 1st he seem v shy. in actual fact is totally not! :p Kelly is a v sweet n notti girl! although her size so small, but she got a big big heart! but sometimes she likes to bully me. hahaha.. sadds.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? brought joy to CLS club which equals to my life too. :]

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you? One calling me Mama n the other calling me Jie Jie.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? commit suicide if is Alan. hahah cuz cannot luan lun! if is Kelly i dun mind. hahaha..

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? break up with both their lovers.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? Make them not become my enemy?

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? im too cute for them to tahan

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? give me money

11.Your overall impression of him/her is? GOOD!

12.How you think people around you will feel about you? unstandable

13.The character(s) you love of yourself is/are? Noisy

14.On the contrary, the character(s) you hate of yourself is/are? Unrestrained

15.The most ideal person you want to be is? The women who completed 10km in less than 30mins.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 people.

1. Clarence
2. Weixin
3. Seow
4. Jiawen
5. Joan
6. Rachel
7. Suet Yee
8. Kian Tat
9. Jian Wei
10. Alex

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with? Omg. i cannot say! or else we will both die! :x

18.Is no.9 a male or female? hahah.. ehhs.. hahaha

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? hahaha.. i cannot imagine. i tink no. 7 wun be able to stand no. 10. hahaha

20.How about no.8 and 5? might be.

21.What is no.2 studying about? hw to grow white hair in a week

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Friday. Went to pass her cheesecake n her passing me her I/C.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like? any band tt got me in it de. wahahhaha

24.Does no.1 has any siblings? yahhs a twin sis named Caren.

25.Will you woo no.3? dunnit. we love each other le :]

26.Is no.4 single? Attach to me le

27.What's the surname of no.5? Joan Chen Si Ying

28.What's the hobby of no.4? screaming, burping into ppl's face, scratchin anyone who attacks her, acting like a retard. hehehe

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well? ehh they dunno each other yet.

30.Where is no.2 studying at? NIE

31.Talk something casually about no.1? he's my sis

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8? hahaha then will be Jie Di Lian le!

33.Where does no.9 live at? Hougang Chalet!

34.What color does no.4 like? the colour of sai. :p

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends? of cuz! they r khakis!

36.Does no.7 likes no.2? ehhs she too shy to go talk to her le.

37.How do you get to know no.2? tru camp n club n oso related tru a few frens

38.Does no.1 have any pets? ya his car

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? ya. tt is aft i die. hehehes.. :p

*Recovered* 12.50am

i finally recover back some of my slp. cannot tell u hw tiring the past week was. i slp not more than 4 hrs for a few consecutive days. till about the 5th day i was realli a walking zombie. and tt day happen to be the 9th Sept. when my Shape Run took place.

lets start with weekdays. FYP then go work. then fri nite went over to Jess hse to borrow her oven. b4 tt i ran to a few places. then finally reached her home at 10 plus pm when we started preparing the mix. super late lo! so paiseh to disturb her n her mommy. budden for the sake of my 3 special birthday girls, hafta do it! haha..

Jess helped me alot! tks soo muchh! we waited for the bake to finish n i went home ard 1 plus to do the finishing touches.

hahah i tink is nice kayys! cuz v xin ku hohhs.. by the time i finish everyting n wash up was abt 4am le. n i hafta wake up at 8am to go to the Workshop w Cheryl. Zzzz

Aniwaes went to DXO where there was the workshop n pampering stations. the massage was great. n so was the hand scrub. super relaxing. then i went to collect my Shape Run bib n timer n i went to work. @ nite was the celebration @ Settlers. I bathed @ the 2nd floor toilet b4 tt. tt was the most insecure thing to do in Settlers la! w the door being so fragile n all. but i dun wan to stink during the celebration. I brought my camera, but i was too tired even to take pictures! wait for eng to send me le.

Then Sun morn woke @ 5 plus am. got ready for Shape run. i was in the worse condition for the run i tell u. i slpt onli 4 hrs, and i ate a huge breakfast cuz i din wan to waste the bread which was expiring the next day. n felt like puking aft tt. hahaha.. but aniwaes i still went ahead n completed it. i kept telling myself i juz have to overcome myself n beat my own timing. it was a great run la. i went for Killiney toast aft tt. like their teh si! nice...

oh ya. u noe when i cross the finishing line i heard the person commentating announcing tt the 10km 2nd place cross the finishing line too! *GasP* 10km in like 29mins?! oMg lo... super lihai. i wan to be like her someday man. TRAIN! haha

aft tt i called up Alvin ask him come to cafe earlier to open for me. he reach like 15 mins earlier? -.- i sat outside waiting for him lo. stupid Jonathan n Jerry inside slping dun wan open for me. gRrr... then went to bathe again n started work. was alrite la. then went home n died on my bed.

FYP nth much to sae. dun wan to sae oso. hahahha.. will complete jiu dui liaO.

i muz go back to my research le. tata!

so nw im going to show all the happie pics le! :]

*wHy?* 2am

actualli i wanted to blog bout today's work. and how my mummy made me dinner to bring over there, this cute little boy who hugged me and going out for supper w Settlers peeps. all happy tings. but nw im juz abit sad.

dad woke up to tell me smth. i dunno what i can do. i tot i did, but nw i realise i dun.

sometimes i reali wish sometings nvr happen. if given a chance again, i wldnt have say it. if i didnt say it, it will only affect me, which doesnt reali matter to me. but nw, it's affecting other ppl too. n im reli upset hw tings have changed. but wat can i do? :(

my gd fren is sad toO. tt adds on to me feelin nt so gd.

i have a hunch tt this period of time will be the turning point for me n ppl tt matters. i relli need to noe hw to move. praYs*

The Iron Women WW n CC!

Auntie n me got TELEPATHY! wahahha ytd i work rites. At home i alreadi tinkin i dun wan eat Cafe food le. ask Mummy cook but she wan go work le. not free.. then go cafe Auntie sae: "Yao bu yao chi fan?" wah i so happie lo! Mummy dun cook for me, Auntie cook! wahhahaa.. 1st time i eat Chinese cuisine tt she cooked. i eat alot alot lo! wahhaha show u!

Ai Xin Dinner! wahahaha

Then went to attend snowboarding n horse riding oso le! so fun lo!!! Snowboarding the stupid instruction see-me-no-up, keep asking me go practise while Alex n Clar can go top of the slope le. then i keep practising n finally i can board dwn the slope w/o falling! n he saw it! wahahhaha.. yea! so clever rites? wahahhaa... we stayed over @ clar hse aft tt. tt 2 stupid guy drink a bottle of wine lo. veri fast KO le. Esp tt hairless one. tsk!

Horse Riding i share horse Damn Clar. our horse is Maoh Maoh! wahahhaa.. actually juz Maoh. he so cute lo! let me ride on him n he likes me too! wahahhaha i finally got to try horseback riding! something i wan to do since young! i realli wan to cont. but noe is nt possible. sighs- wait bahhs! wait til i marry a rich man! then i can go learn le heh heh heh...

Damn Clar, Maoh n Me!

im so tired le. bth. see u tml!