*Meet Ups!* 12.50am

im happy! cuz i met up with quite a no. of ppl! :]

last week went with Irenes to shopping! then met Wenjie for movie few days ago. Met up with Sam, Cheryl, LT n KQ for dinner. juz nw went back SP to meet Jianwei, Jiawen, Alvin n ppl. oso played abit of Captain Ball!!! :] so happy!

aft tt went for dinner with them @ Vivo. we went to Pasta Mania. then aft tt Alvin n me went to Gloria Jeans to chat! we talked bout past n present! i so miss them la! n i had quite a few updates! hehes!

my next aim is to meet Yutai, Nasir and Alex! n actually alot of other ppl! hahaha.. im more free now le! rest 1st b4 sch reopens!

Mike coming to SG next mon! yay!!! :] shld be going airport to fetch him. :]

yeapp! i going slp le. tml doubling! see u! :]

*Blood!!!* 1am

did husbandry today again. with Mark n Eddie.

Eddie was being super irritating today. both to me n Mark. He kept teasing me just becuz i ask them to go to Zouk instead of MOS. n Mark was saying i bet it's cuz of Mambo night! then i was like YAH!!! then both of them stared @ me. n Eddie was saying tt im damn Cheena...

im like the Super Cheena girl in NS lah.. @ 1st it was cuz my presentation sounded Cheena. then they started related everything about me with Cheena -.- i mean wats the link with Mambo n Cheena?! Zzz

aniwaes we were discussing this in the kitchen during food prep n i was so busy luffing @ the stupid Eddie n his own version of Mambo songs that i sliced a piece of the flesh of my finger. Zzz.. quite pain la. then my blood flow n mixed with the horse's blood. n flow n flow n flow. n the horse's blood oso mix into my blood.. now im like 5% horse person.

i realise til nw i have v little picture of the gross things we do in NS. most of the pics r with owls, servals n snakes. next time i shld take a pic of us doing food prep in the kitchen or when we're cutting rats. haha..

aft work took a cab dwn with Mark to Changi chalet for Amanda's bday surprise party! we bought her a watch. then hang ard n watched "Friends". nw then i realise "Friends" is so funny! then SayLin sent all of us home.

Tml going with them aft work to MOS lo. celebrate July babies. hao la. i go watch abit of friends on YouTube. wahaha! see u!

*I Don't Want to Emo* 5.30pm

i have been repressing this feeling for so long. but it has all come rushing back now that i have nth to do. why did i have a last min OFF today? :(

becuz im so free today, i was polishing up my blog. n i went to each n everyone's blog link n checked if they r still in use. i read n managed to catch up with some of my fren's life.

i felt so super ashamed n guilty. esp aft reading joan's last entry. i realli dunno wat to say. i dun wish to find excuses. cuz i choose the way i want to live. not anyone else. i've nvr realise my negligence did caused my fren so much frustration n disappointment. so super ashamed. im realli sorry

isit realli becuz of my irregular timing job? sure it has caused alot of inconvenience. did i do anything to make sure i make up for it?

i cldnt keep count of the events that i had missed out on for these past few months. all these events were so impt to my frens. issit realli true that if i want to, i can always find time for them?

nw tt i have time to release those emotions, i realli cannot deny the sadness n disappointment to those outings tt i have not been there.

i tot i was damn sensitive, thus i always try to suppress that sadness when im told of an event which i wasnt being ask to join. til i can easily get over the fact tt i wasnt being invited in just 1 min. but now i want to be sensitive again. so that i will feel sad n do smth about it.

i just keep blabbing til i dunno wat im talking about anymore.

i just miss the past so much i want to die.

why do growing up n moving on have to be so hard?

i have so much to say. but i dunno hw to say.

i did not go again today. though i finally told my parents. issit tt im just plain lazy? or i just dont want to know. but i know it's probably nth. it cant be anything. i cant lose the only reason to be with myself. i really cant....... :(

*Revived* 12.30pm

wow! when was the last time i blogged? i cldnt rmb. haha.. sorry for neglecting u! :(

dunno what i had been busy with, seriously.

work? has calm dwn since last week. cuz nw they got alot of new staff, can afford to give us less shifts liaO. i tink i had repaid my slp debt. i slpt like pig lo.. slpt 13 hrs for 2-3 days. haha

sch? hmm.. went for Rag Dance n help out Rag for a few days. felt like joining Rag Dance, budden they have too many girls! so can only pick some of us. I wasnt in the team, abit sad, but nvm! will still go back for practice when im free! :]

then work is alright lahhs.. Liaos, Ronnie, and a few other Thumbuakar dancers left le. went back to Borneo. abit sad on the day they left. now got new dancers.

hmm ytd worked Morning with Jessiy. did Rat husbandry for the 1st time! oMg. the rats, mice, hamster, gerbil so super cute lahs!!! we hadda wash all their water bottles n transfer them 1-by-1 to new containers. n i saw so many rat babies!



so cute rite! hehes.. but we did til realli quite late. did 20mins of OT. then i rushed to meet Doris @ JE. so long since i last saw her. ate dinner together n catch up. so nice to meet up! :]

School is going to start soon! i needa do quite a few things b4 that.

1. Get a haircut
2. Arrange my study table
3. Buy new bed
4. Buy laptop
5. Decorate my room

so many things to do. i sure v lazy to do de lo! haha.. aniwaes this weekend is Shape Run. Oh man. im not ready. im super out of Shape now la. Zzz.. nvm. take this as a stepping stone to my healthy lifestyle again! :]

*July* 11am

July is a busy month.

it's the month b4 sch reopens. n i move on to University, the next phase of my life.

i just came back from R&F camp ytd. it was just a 2 days 1 nite event where 'Scampers' gathered together again. n aft tt Yuru n me went straight back to work. haha...

so im quite tired now. n im sick :( siaNz. got cough n blocked nose n ear. even the transport Bus uncle of NS noes im sick. haha... n im leaving for ODAC camp in about 2 hrs time. n i have not packed yet. hahaha.. :p

aniwaes im not trying to tire myself out. next week i got 2 days off le. so its v gd. can rest. n i got smth impt to do.

im missing out on quite abit of tings due to work. Zzz.. Hester bday, Alvin pre enlistment party, class gathering.. n the list goes on. :(

aniwaes ya. see how tings goes ba. im still trying to pay my slp debt. haha