*aBiT ToO LaTe* 11.34pm

todae i feel so weiRd.. well we had game trial juz now.. it was quite fuN.. got to noE thoSe non FO GLs, ppl like peiqi, zhenye n shuxian better.. then aft tt went to causeway with a few of them to have dinner @ pastamania! :] i finally got my swim suit. FINALLY! aft one year of searching! now i can go swim le.. yay!!! hEez...

hmm as to why i feel so weird.. i feel tt thinGs arent the way they used to bE.. with a fren of miNe.. i duNno issit my fault, for alot of timE i wasnt there when u're bored n mabbe even troubled.. but u've always been there for me.. though sometimes i din approach u, but i noe u will always be there when i neEd u cuz u told me so.

have i put my proprity wRonG? sometimes i feel tt im v selfish.. actually most of the timE.. but u nvr flare up or mention anything abt it. Thus i will tink tt im right. Maybe someone shld give me a slap to wake me up. Though i will probably beat u up aft tt, but well.. it will wake me up.

i treasure this frenship aloT.. the problem with me is i nvr bother to explain.. alot of timE when there's an arguement, i will sae "juz forget it okay?" cuz i realli dunNo wat i can sae to make u sEe in my point of view. i DUnNo hw to make u understanD. or mabbe i juz dun wan to noE tt im @ fault toO..

most of my frens tell me "u have so many friends, where got time for us" hahhaa.. but all my diff grp of frens sae the same thinG.. so where do i actually belonG? my frens @ settlers sae "aiyah u so busy, always call u come dwn u oso not free." my poly frens sae "aiyah u always go out with ur outside frens, nvr hang out with us", my sec sch frens sae "u like got a lot of activities, so busy" hahhaa.. so who do i actually spend my time with when all my grp of frens feel tt i spend too much time with my OTHER frens..

im relli neither here nor there.. mabbe i divide my time too equally b/w all of them tt they all feel unimportant. mabbe i've been caring too much to satisfy everybody tt i neglect those frens tt i realli neEd and care about.

so tired...